I got up and stared at Aubrey the famous guy who saved me from losing myself after the problem. We were supposed to be “brother and sister” as he told the public. I was Jasmine the little college student, but the media knew me as the OVO-Kid. I knew who he wanted and he knew I just wanted to feel alive again, after the incident, it didn't stop me from using, but it did stop me from stripping, that's when he sent me to Nicki. I was too far gone for him to handle, I remember him pleading with her to help me, he didn't want Mama (Sandi)to see me like this, she couldn't take seeing me messed up again. My mother wasn't able to handle me either he knew better than to call. I can’t believe we let last night happen again, the fifth time we had gotten carried away this shit is too much he’s falling but i’m still just using him.
“We have got to stop doing this shit” I said , he looked at me and smiled
“What nothing happened? Your my Lil sis remember, or should I say best friend, or best fuck buddy” Drake stared at my naked body as I walked picked up his shirt and throwing it over myself. He winked and chuckled.
“I swear you and her are just alike.. God I need to check my phone” I said
“Who is her?” he asked picking up my phone
Just like luck the screen lit up.
Onika Boo: You done, I need you babe
“ What what are you doing? You’re fucking her?” Drake yelled.
“Listen she knows. .I’m bringing you two closer don't you see, I love the both of you, but I know who you think about when I’m with you and I know who she thinks about when i'm with her, and you know i'm only doing this with the both of you so I feel again. It’s twisted I know. But I have no heart when it comes to things like this, Aubrey don't get hurt. You both ask about each other after, she still cares, she just can’t get your full love right now.” Jasmine said, looking down.
“You love me? You haven't said that in a while wow!” he said sarcastically
“Yes you are still my brother in many ways, but this what we are doing has no attachment, you are giving me love, you can't even fuck me, you have to love me cause you know you love her and I’m the one in contact with her” I said, sighing
“What what does she ask about when it comes to me?’ Drake asked, as Jasmine searched around for her leggings
“She just wants to make sure you're doing ok, If you're treating me right” I said
He got up kissed my forehead, grabbed his jacket and pulled up his pants, “I need to go, let me know when you fly back to school” he said. Then he left, I stared in the mirror, I saw all of the marks left on my skin. In school they thought I was a hoe, I didn't care, the marks left by him would only be marked over by her. I put my hair up in a ponytail and headed out to her condo. I didn't know why she wanted me the day after I had just had him, but I guess she was just feigning that bad.
I heard a knock on the door, “She's always late” Onika mumbled as she opened the door. “Hey babe sorry I'm late, Aubrey found out …” she looked down. I was in shock the 20 year old girl, who was 5’7, a caramel skin tone, and a rocking body wasn't able to keep the boy from our secret. How much more high could she get before she knew the damage she was doing to herself, but when would Aubrey notice?
I couldn't look at her cause I saw what he had left on her, I wished it was me who he was marking up like that, “Well what happened?’ Onika asked nervously. “Well if you let me in we can talk about it” Jasmine said running her hand over her face. Aubrey and her were so alike, she was the female version of him. It was insane, but I loved it, I could have him at the same time I was having her. Onika couldn't help but smile at the thought.
As we started talking, I saw the redness in her eyes, drained and tired I knew what she needed and she knew what I needed to.
“What are you using this time?” Onika asked
“You just know every time, well lately it has been a mix of things perks, zanies, I tried molly boy that shit is good they don’t lie” Jasmine said looking up at me with her big brown eyes, I swore she had eyes like the Pharaohs of Egypt they were so curved, but she looked so lost.
“You need to talk to someone, You can’t just keep pushing getting raped on yourself, just because you had a drink doesn't mean it was your fault, he drugged you babe, now you're going numb, and having to hear that 40 found you in that club so drugged up kills me every time. You need help, I can’t keep being your doctor whenever you want to feel again” Onika replied
“It was my fault Nika, I shouldn't have been drinking, its all my fault, why do you think I didn't press charges, I will get myself together soon, but for right now I just want to feel, just give me that, please” Jasmine said taking off Aubrey's sweater.
Nicki could never resist her, she addicted just to feel close to Drake, and to help Jasmine helped her feel more alive. It was so crazy the his scent lingered on her body like that, she had taken a shower you could smell the dove body wash dripping off her skin, but then you smelt it, him. When she looked up to see Jasmine gripping her breasts while her long dark brown hair flowed down her back, cumming , orgasm taking over. Nicki tried not to stop eating, but Jasmine was beautiful in this moment, on her with Nicki she was an angel. As the light poured on her body, she was coming down off her high, she looked at me and giggled, “You just don’t understand how I alive I feel.” Jasmine said breathlessly.
Then, like a snap back into reality my phone started ringing it was Josh I couldn't stand the fact that I had let myself even like this nigga but now he felt love, and I had lost it as soon as I saw Drake again when he was almost broken, dropping off Jasmine and her almost lifeless half naked body I knew it brought back them memories of when the rape happened when she tried to run off to Canada. Jasmine just brought a turn to things she made me realize who I really love she had tried so many times to get me to talk to him, but how, I had started something with him, they just stopped talking to him to be with some bum nigga who just wanted me for pussy.
I had heard Josh tell his boys so that many times, but just couldn't bring myself to believe it. I had Drake a man who was deeply in love with me he had tried to bring me happiness, but I didn't want to ruin the things we had, plus the media, and I could never forgive myself it I lost him. I answered the phone “What Josh?”. He sounded incoherent, but somewhere along the lines it was getting home so I can get some of that pussy. I felt sick and just hung up.
Jasmine stared at my naked body. “Tell me what you're thinking, what you feel?’ I said
“I am thinking how did I get this beautiful 5’2 rapping queen to even agree to let me kiss her, feel her, and how she just let Onika hang free around me, why not just push me off i'm a nobody.” Jasmine said almost singing, the feeling I brought her just another high, but the high that kept her alive.
I laughed, she gave me the same high I gave her, she just didn't know it. “You mean the world to me girl, I love you and I know you love me, You could have all of me, I just know you’d never be happy, loving your doctor for the rest of your life.” I said smiling at her
“You’re so right” she said then she went to go run a bath. We got in and just sat there, playing his music, it felt so right whenever I heard his voice. then the song came on that stupid song, but she loved it and knew all of the words. As his voice filtered the air all I could hear was
Why you never come to where I stay?
Always hiding out in your New York condo
Why you never come to where I stay?
If anybody knows, girl you know, I know
Why are we wasting our relationship on a relationship?
Why are we rushing and forcing it? This isn't making sense
Why are we focused on things that don't even mean nothing, girl?
Why can we not find the time and sit down and discuss it, girl?
Let me at least tell you my side of things, man
Aw man, aw man
Aw, man
Me and you are playing house, start think that I'm losing touch
Got a tight grip on ya now, maybe I should loosen up
When I leave you and I go home, I start forgetting what it is
Start to think I got to get it how I live
We too busy for a wedding or a kid
If I'm working then I know you working
Keep in touch with other women, cause you make me nervous
I empower girls that don't deserve it
I don't mean to do that shit on purpose
It's just that when I go home, I start forgetting what it is
The dream is over, I get lost up in the 6
When we got out we looked at each other one last time before she headed back off to Cali, she was smart, she got into one of those UC schools, she was becoming a pediatrician of all things. A beautiful girl tattered by one night, she was headed somewhere bright. Why oh why God did it have to be her? Nicki went back to bed, but then she heard Josh stumble in , great another argument about why she wasn't giving him any.
As I landed in Cali, my best friend \ cousin was waiting for me, she looked at me wide eyed, I knew probably looked a mess.
“Another crazy adventure with the infamous king and queen of rap I see ?” she asked, grabbing my hand
“Yeah shit is starting to get deep, I’m getting them so close but losing myself within it, He found out about her and just left, I know he needs time to think” I replied
I texted him
Jazzy Lil Sis: Back home, i'm good, r u ok?
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