Charge the hotline

Coming back to New York felt like a dream, a lot had changed. I couldn't get over the fact that I had left 5 years ago to go stay with my grandparents to get my shit together, but now I owned a condo in upstate New York and had what every man wished he could have, money and power.

But one thing I didn't have was love, I had left it when I moved. The girl was mostly a friend with benefits but I was starting to fall for her, I couldn't wait to see her again. I could remember us being us, chilling after our late night Sexcapades, she'd lay in my arms and ask me all of these questions about where we would be when I got famous. She was the only one who ever had faith in me becoming something bigger than a city boy who sold dope on the corner. She also believed we would be more than what we were at the moment.

"Drizzy Drizzy earth to Drake we are here" 40 said, waving his hand in front of my face

"Sorry man you know I was just lost in my thoughts" Drake replied

They got out the car and headed into the building to see Drake's new condo... Where unbenounced to him was a welcome home party with all of his old friends. As he headed up to the elevator, he notice 40 was constantly checking his phone.

"What's wrong man, you keep checking your phone like crazy?" Drake asked, getting suspicious

40 and the boys were never good at surprises, plus Drake didn't like them in the first place.

"Nnnothing man" 40 said stuttering away all of his excitement

As they walked up to the door of his condo, Drake swore he could have heard movement.. he side eyed 40 not amused and already detecting what 40 was trying to hide.

"Man you serious ? You go the peoples over at my crib.. I can't get a fucking break" Drake whispered to 40 as he backed away from the door

"You can't go along with the shit one time Drizzy, just act surprised and they will all be gone within an hour or two" 40 said

Wanting to get it over with walked in and turned on the lights to be bombarded with a big loud "SURPRISE" from all of his old time friends. He looked unimpressed, but smiled quickly a second after.

It had been about an hour into the party and Drake was outside by his lonesome sipping away on some henny. He heard someone open the door and he turned his head. It was? TT a familiar friend of Onika's his love who he left behind. His eyes perked up hoping to hear that Onika was here

"So you are just going to stare at me or give me a hug Aubrey ? Don't think that shit changed just because you're some big time record label owner. " TT said, placing her hands on her hips

TT was just the same as he remembered, attitude baring, beautiful full figure, dark brown eyes that matched her skin. An the wisdom of an old lady. There she was in one of his shirts he had been selling recently with the ovo owl attached to it.

He put down the drink and headed over to TT where he gave her a big bear hug, and a big fat kiss on the cheek.

"Wow, you still look good girl! How have you been ? Maybe you could tell me about.. you know" Drake said, pulling out a seat for TT to take a seat.

"Thank you Aubrey, I myself have been doing great. but.. umm, well maybe you could tell me how you have been" TT said, looking down as soon as the question came into Onika.

You see Onika wasn't even known as Onika anymore, ever since Aubrey turned too Drake, Onika turned in to Nicki. Nicki had lost various jobs for her attitude problems, and was now working on trying to become the next best female rapper. She had a reputation, for sleeping around with men. She was known as "The best any man could ever have". She had a new clique of fake ass friends who were only around for the money and men Nicki carried with her. The sad truth is Drake broke Onika and it seemed she was deemed unfixable.

Aubrey stared intently at TT with is hazel orbs making her fiddle with her fingers, he knew something was up.

"I'm good, What about Onika? why isn't she here" Drake said he was getting nervous, he had heard the stories about how Onika had ran off and started this new identity as this person who no one wanted around, she had maybe gone down the wrong path, but every once in a while she traveled to a different parts of the world to try and find Onika again.

TT didn't want to be the one to break it to him, but before she could speak the sliding glass door opened up and here walked the person of an hour. Almost unrecognizable, her body had stayed the same curves in all the right places, her hair was a barbie blonde, with dark brown roots, she was wearing a short cut body con dress which was deep red in color, with black 5 inch red bottoms. Her eyes seemed low, as if she had been smoking. The look on her face was almost like hurt, she rolled her eyes and gave a dirty look to TT as she smacked on her gum.

"As you can see this is Onika, I have to go Aubrey I will talk to you later" TT said, giving Drake a kiss on the cheek and heading out, her and this new Nicki hadn't really been on speaking terms

Drake just stared on in amazement, he still saw all of the beauty through her blunt cover up Nicki had.

But for Nicki she just came to see if the bastard was really back. She looked him up and down, well he got what he wanted right ? Fame and fortune, without her. She was pissed, he left without a word and when they did get  back in touch he was too busy to talk to her most of the time. She took a deep breath before speaking to him.

"So the heart-stealing asshole is back in town, I just had to come see if it was true, and it is.. I don't see why you were wasting your time talking to TT you want to know about me, you can come find me" Nicki said, taking a seat across from Drake and lighting the blunt he had sat at the table.

Drakes world seemed to be crashing down around him as he saw his once innocent love , turned into this monster who was angry at him. He couldn't help the fact that he had to move he was 16 young and dumb. But it was his fault for not keeping the contact if he loved her so much. But he thought that she wanted him to come up and be somebody, then he would come back and pick her up off her feet.

"On.." Drake said getting interrupted

"It's Nicki now, but go ahead and continue on" Nicki said smiling

"Nicki, I'm so sorry baby girl, I meant to keep in contact with you, but I had to make sure I was set up before I came back to you , I wanted to be a man and provide you with all you needed before I got back to you. Now I am and Nicki I want you" Drake said, reaching for her hand that was resting on the table

Nicki snatched her hand away and looked at him in disgust, tears started forming, when she looked at him.

"Don't you ever try to touch me again! Try to come to me with that sorry ass apology, who do I look like some dumb bitch ?! Aubrey you left me out in the cold by myself,  you left me like a chatty. Then you want to act like it was for the best ? The best for who? you ? To go around a fuck all of these little bitches" Nicki said, slamming her hand against the table as tears were rolling down her face she hadn't been this vulnerable in so long, he literally made her feel so confused clouded thoughts of emotions came running back into her.

"Nika you know it wasn't like that, I swear baby. I just wanted to better myself for you. This( points to the house and himself) was an upgrade for you, you deserved better than the 16 year old dope boy you would come over and smash from time to time. I wasn't out there fucking bitches? I was focusing on what I'm building for myself , hopefully us. I've barely touched anyone in these past 5 years. I don't know if I can say the same for you though " Drake said starting to get frustrated at how she could blame him for bettering himself.

"I said it was Nicki. Drake, well I think this bettering myself for us is just bullshit you can go feed it to someone else. Maybe I liked the dope boy you better anyways, I like my men with a little more balls and honesty. can't even keep shit real with me. I can fuck whoever I want, I wasn't yours back then I'm not now" Nicki said, irritated now, how could she want him now? She was nothing, and he was everything she wished she was..

"It's not bullshit, I know Onika is somewhere in this little Nicki bitch front that you are putting up. Let me tell you Nicki ain't cute, fuck who you want to right. At least I'm trying harder to fix what I managed to mess up in the past. Fuck, you drive me crazy. I'm not that dope boy, hes gone, I fixed myself, you need to do the same. You were mine back then don't even try to play that card" Drake said running his hand over his head, how could she be like this.

"Onika's been gone for the past three years, you can't make her come back. If you don't like the bitch I am don't worry about it , I wasn't planning on being around your light skinned ass anyways. I'm broken and you need to get that through your thick skull, cant nobody fix me, fuck me yeah maybe, but fix me never. You were my heart and when you left it went with you. Alright maybe I was yours but you lost that title sweetheart." Nicki said, getting her stuff together to leave.

Drake was like a slap to her face that everyone tried to give to her, but she wasn't about to hang around to hear more about what a fuck up she had become.

"You're fixable, just lets start over let me make it up to you. I want to bring you the heart, I stole let me bring it back.  I can show you I'm more than all of those random niggas" Drake said, getting up to stop her as she was heading out the door.

"Goodbye, Drake" She pushed past him and walked out. She was done, she really had left, she let out a deep sigh got in her car and left.

Drake thought about running after her, but knew better. He had slipped his number in her purse as she headed out the door. He just hoped that she would call, and they could make up,

When Nicki got home, she walked in to see things thrown all over the place

"Shit, he found it" She said getting nervous as she walked back to her bedroom.

There he was her somewhat of a boy toy passed out with the only bottle of liquor she had left in the house. She went over to tap his shoulder, she didn't even know why he had stayed the night he knew her rules.

Nicki had three rules when it came to her boy toys

1. Always use protection
2. We are not a couple just friends
3. Do not sleep over at my house

Rah had been another guy to add to the list to never fuck around with again, every time they had messed around another thing of Nicki's had gone missing. From food to cash. So when he didn't budge when she tapped his shoulder she pulled out her 9mm nudged him with it again, she was heated, her house was trashed, he ex was back in town, and the shit jacking nigga was in her bed.

"Shit.. what the fuck NICK, why the fuck you point a gun at me ma ?" Rah asked head pounding from a hangover.

"How many times I have to tell your monkey looking ass to not be over at my house when I'm gone, yet you don't listen and your ass steals from me, shit I forgot why I even gave your ass the time of day in the first place. You used to look good and put in the work, but now you are just a bum ass nigga." Nicki said, waving the 9mm in front of his face

Rah, was an old high school friend, who had recently got out of jail 6 months ago, Nicki was having the time of her life with the muscular, dark as milk chocolate ass nigga. But in the past three months he had packed on the pounds, gotten lazy, and had been in and out of a relationship with his children's mother. Oh yeah, Rah had a set of twins by his old high school sweetheart Jessica.

"Listen Nicki im sorry, just don't shoot me, let me give you some money, cant you just let me stay the night, I don't have no where to go.. You know how Jessica gets she kicked me out again, I just need somewhere to stay just for tonight" Rah said, getting out of Nicki's bed and putting on his pants

"You can give me my money, clean up the mess you made, and then get the fuck out my house , or I can shoot your ass. Your choice Rah, im so sick of your ass, you realize I'm so far done with you at this point . Right ? " Nicki said, nudging him with the nose of the gun.

She stood there for half an hour watching Rah get his shit together, and cleaning up her house. When he tried to head for the door, she stopped him shoving the gun right in his face.

"Nuh auh, my money Rah. I'm not playing nigga" Nicki said, pushing her hand out forward

"Shit Nicki I need it to get a room to sleep in tonight c'mon" Rah said looking to the left trying to find an escape route.

"Sleep in ya raggedy ass car, now give me my money" Nicki said

Rah, handed over a wad of cash, and scurried out the house. As Nicki counted out the cash, it only totaled out to a little over 500 hundred dollars, that cheap as owed her way more, but this money would do for now.

Nicki took a seat at her island in her kitchen to just take in all of today's events. She ran her hand through her hair as the tears fell from her face. How could she be living a life like this. She had so much going for her. As she got up locked her doors and set the alarm on the house, she headed back to her room where she placed her 9mm on the dresser. She stripped out of her clothes and hit play on her old CD player to listen to the serenading voice of the one and only Beyonce. She ran her water for the bath. She added in the vanilla bubble bath, and waited until the tub filled up just right.

Through all of this she was still Onika as fragile as ever, fighting the world on the outside, because it had always seemed to be against her. As she got into the tub, she closed out the world of all the bad thoughts and went back to the time when she was happy.

Flashback 

Laid in Aubrey's arms, her dark brown curls spread about the two of them as they were in an embrace. She had never been happier than when she was in his arms. He looked down at her and smiled.

"Listen baby, I'm not saying this because we have been fucking each other for a while, or that I want to keep fucking you..  I just think you  are the most amazing beautiful girl I have ever seen. And every time I get your here naked, soft, an so angelic like I want to keep you here forever" Aubrey said pecking her lips as Onika took it all in

Her face was gleaming with happiness, Aubrey wasn't the type to just express his feelings for anyone. I mean he was the local weed dealer and Onika was the dance captain at school, who fell for the bad boy who snuck over on the weekends to show her what love was all about. So when she looked back up into is hazel orbs to see them glistening with love she couldn't help but blurt out

"I love you Aubrey, its not just the sex, or your sweet talks, all this time I've had this heart aching feeling that I couldn't escape, until I just let me know its ok to love him" Onika said, looking down again, there was no way he could love her, she had a feeling she had just ruined this whole booty call situation

He picked up her chin, looked at her confused, a couple tears falling from his eyes

"Why'd you have to be the one to say it first ? I love you more baby girl to the great infinities of which no one could ever reach. Though I may not be good for you in anyway" Aubrey said then he smashed his lips against hers

Onika kissed him back deeply, both so young, professing love. She had just accepted the fact that this was her soulmate. Their kisses quickly turned back into the loving making they had just finished doing.

Young, in love, and not a care in the world

End of Flashback 

Nicki opened her eyes, to have tears pouring from them, lost in her own thoughts of him, his touch, his voice. It was going to be hell now that he was back, because after all the boys, drugs, and scars she still loved him even more than she had when she was 16.

As she scrubbed herself clean and got out the tub, she couldn't stop her mind from thinking that maybe he wasn't lying when he said he had bettered himself for the both of them. What if it was all true ?  But by the time she had laid herself back down in her bed, all alone like the rest of her cold days, she just saw it as too good to be true.

Drake had finally got his place to himself, he finished cleaning up the mess around the house. But yet he couldn't get the image of her out of his head, what had he done to her. She used to call him on her late nights of feeling lonely for his love, him, no one else's, now he was wondering who was with her tonight. Was it any of the guys at his party, just why wasn't it him. If he had fixed himself, why had she'd gotten worse ?

He called up his mother, to explain today's events to her, she of all people knew Aubrey and Onika the best.

"Hello ? Aubrey it's 1 in the morning!"   Sandi said tiredly into the phone.

As Drake explained the events, his mother could hear the hurt in his voice, the blame, he put on himself, she wished she could take it all away.

"Aubrey, though you may have caused her some hurt, you can't blame it all on you she has had 5 years to grow and change for the better, if you really want her just don't give up on her, but sometimes but sometimes when people change for the bad its a war to get them back." Sandi said

Drake took it all in, he wanted Onika back more than anything, maybe he'd give her some time.She would be his again.

"Thank you Mom, I don't know where I'd be without you, I love you" Drake said

"Love you too baby, goodnight" Sandi said

"Goodnight mom" Drake said hanging up

He lay back in his bed thinking of a game plan to right his wrongs.


I'm not sure how I feel about this one, but Drake songs are super inspiring for writing ! 

Don't normally ask but for this one, I would ask for at least 5 comments for me to actually continue with. 

Sweeterman

A Collabaration with the Bestie:  DrickiSoldier

She say I'm a sweeterman

The loud music was bumping throughout the club giving the rhythm they were lasciviously dancing to capturing the show. The beach was barely lightened, the light strings and the light of the moon being the only sources of light. A soft ocean breeze ran through the club as their bare feet dug in the warm sand. They were in their own bubble away from the other clubbers enjoying that warm Miami night together.

"So can I take you out on a date sometime?" Aubrey asked, pressing his face into her neck, moving slowly with her hip movements.

The girl looked up at him and laughed. She had just met him in this beach club, it was their first time seeing each other, they didn't even know each other's names. It was already hard for her to believe that she was dancing squeezed tight with a stranger. She was not the type to do such things at all, she liked to tease men it was her thing, but she would never let one get close enough to her, she liked teasing and seducing but all from a distance. Dancing with a stranger was already out of habit for her so there was no way she'd let him take her out. No matter how cute she found him and even though she could admit to herself that he made her feel something.

Getting no answer, but a laugh, Aubrey chuckled and looked down at the woman that was dancing in his arms. The curves of her body like an hourglass, her hair flowed like waves on a beach down her back. Every feature on her face from the curve of her smile to the way her eyebrows furrowed whenever he asked the wrong question attracted him to her even more.
Her smell was intoxicating like mangoes and cream, not to mention pheromones dripping off her making him hornier by the second.

He couldn't take no as an answer, not from her, she made him feel that once in a lifetime thing. He simply wanted her and couldn't wrap his mind around the fact that he wouldn't see her again after that night.

He pressed himself a little bit harder onto her back. She could feel the outline of him and it made her laugh again. She knew she could have that effect on men, and it was always flattering. What she wasn't  used to was the way it made her feel, her knees started to get weak and her breathing hitched a bit. But she did her best to keep it cool and seem poised. It was of no use as Aubrey noticed each and every single change in her demeanor which was enough to let him know what she felt.

"So baby girl can I take you out sometime, you are just too fly for me to leave without seeing you again." Aubrey asked again, just above a whisper this time, getting his face in the crook of her neck so that his lips were not even an each away from Nicki's earlobe. He knew this would get her a bit closer to the edge.

" I don't need a man." She replied whining her hips faster against his ever growing friend. If he was going to play, then she would also have her little fun.

She looked up at his tan face and let her eyes trace the curve of his pink plump lips to the little freckles on his cheeks, then to his hazel eyes, which seemed to be dilated by her, just how she wanted they were sparkling with lust.

"Girl I know you wanna, I know you want to, You keep giving me the looks." He sang in her ear. What Nicki didn't know was that just as well as she could see the sparkle in his eyes, Aubrey could see the look of lust and want she was giving him.

His singing didn't make things any better for her, the goosebumps lit up down her spine, as his voice made her knees even weaker and made her quiver.  She could still feel the outline of him and this added to his deep baritone voice was driving her to her edge feeling her bottoms begin to soak.

"Good thing I don't need to be your man. I say we make an agreement then. We can just fuck while we're being friends.. You can give me the adunana-ne." He sang to her again

She turned around facing him so she wouldn't feel him against her anymore. But as she saw his face she couldn't help biting her lip, she let her hand snake up to his neck gently pulling him down for a kiss, at first it was just to tease him but at the moment their lips connected she couldn't help herself and deepened it. He obliged by letting his tongue slide out, she felt the soft traces of his tongue over her lips and opened her mouth. Lost in the moment he let his hands scave down to gently squeeze her ass.

She jumped and looked back up at him, he had this smirk, she knew she wasn't going home alone tonight if she kept herself around him any longer. That's why her instincts kicked in and she backed away. She timidly looked up at him, only to be met by his hazel orbs staring down into her own eyes, making her feel intimidated, he took a step forward and slid an arm around her waist bringing her back to him. He brought his lips to her neck slowly grinding following the rhythm of the music that was playing. Soon he was kissing Nicki on her neck making her quiver in his arms, right then she knew that she needed to get away from him if she didn't want to lose this battle and end up right where he wanted her, she backed away a little bit and took a quick glance at his face she could read the confusion on his face which amused her a bit, she stood on her tip toes and placed her lips on his just for the time of a quick peck before backing away for good and turning around to walk away feeling victorious for only a few seconds before she realized, how bad she wanted him and how she couldn't get him out of her head.

After aimlessly walking in the sand, she decided to find the bar, she needed a drink.Something to  clear her mind of him just for a moment. He had her feeling weak, and wanting him in every way. Which didn't sit right with her, she was the teaser not the one to be played with.

"Moscato and peach snapps please" Nicki said ordering the drink, as the wind pushed her hair out of her face.

The bar smelt horrible like a mix of feet and puke, not to mention intoxicated men were hitting on her from left to right. Also the music was a shitty mix of country and 70s rock, which oddly enough, she was just noticing, a few minutes while dancing with him, she was so engrossed in him that she didn't pay no attention to it.  Now she was ready for her drink and to escape to the beach for a nice walk. As the bartender handed her the cool beverage she headed out, she took a quick sip of her drink and took a breath as she let the beverage, kick in, she took a few steps forward when she heard his baritone voice from behind her startling her but mostly making her knees feel like jelly.

"Trying to run away from me ?" Drake spoke and Nicki took a breath before turning around and that's when she saw the charmer leaning against a wooden post.

He had patiently waited it out for her, he knew she would be back. The heat of the moment had scared her away, but if Aubrey wanted something he surely got it. As the wind started to blow he saw her nearing him again. He felt a slight sense of relief something that he hadn't ever felt before. He had never wanted a woman that bad, he had never wanted a woman to the point where not having her felt so frustrating.

Once Nicki reached his level, she quickly looked up at him and gave him one of the cheeky smiles he just found out he loved so much. Drake held his arm out without a word and Nicki shook her head before accepting it and they started walking arm in arm and walked her towards the outdoor chairs of the beach club.

Drake was starting to feel nervous, at first having her close like that was relaxing until the silence between getting started making him nervous, so he tried to take his mind away by finding out more about the beauty in front of him.

"So I noticed I didn't catch your name ?" Aubrey said completely ignoring the situation that happened earlier his buzz was starting to hit and he had to have this girl. He was going to give his best effort.

She looked up at him, arching an eyebrow, he couldn't help but let out a chuckle

"My name is Nicki, and yours ?" She said taking a sip of her ever so strong drink, as the wind blew his scent

"Hmm interesting but I'd love to hear the legal name ma.. I've never know a chick with just the name Nicki, I'm Aubrey but you can call me Drake." Aubrey replied

Watching her every movement he was like a lion on the hunt, trying to read her before he went for the attack. He watched her eyes roll, he could tell she was trying hard to resist him and bring down her guard.

"You know what ma lets go walk on the beach, then you can tell me all about yourself" Aubrey said, looking at her , reaching out his hand to grasp hers.

She hesitantly put her hand in his and he helped her up and they walked hand in hand towards the water,their hands laced in one another's just felt natural as they walked down the beach taking in each other's presence.

 After walking about half the beach, Aubrey finally built up the courage to slide his arm around her waist to bring Nicki in front of him. She obliged, but had been silent on their walk.

"So ma what's your real name, and why are you so quiet you were pretty wild before?" He asked

Nicki didn't know why she had gotten so quiet, he just had this effect on her, she was yearning for his touch so when he put his arms around her waist it made her melt, the puddle in her botttoms seemed to be getting larger by the second.

"My names Onika, but I really prefer Nicki. I'm quiet because I'm just trying to absorb the moment, its beautiful don't you think ?" Nicki replied, watching as the warm waves hit their toes and then washed away again. Then she would hear Drake's breathing, which calmed her.

"Your name is beautiful just like you. But if you insist on Nicki, I guess I could call you that. The view is gorgeous and even better with you in my arms ma, I swear I'm going to take you home tonight." Aubrey said, pushing her closer to him, she was so warm against the breeze.

"Thank you, I like being in your arms.. we never know where the night could take us. Nicki replied, stopping in her tracks. She set her empty glass down and walked Aubrey and herself deeper into the water. She wrapped her arms around his waist, hugging onto him tightly. As the water splashed and moved around them. A moment like this she had been waiting a lifetime on, just the beach and a person who she could hold dear.

As they stood there Aubrey couldn't help but slid his hands up and down her body rubbing along her waist and ass. Nicki slid  her hands up his shirt rubbing his abs, he got goose bumps she giggled. He looked down at her and kissed her forehead.

"Aubreyyy" Onika said through a fit of giggles as he cascaded kisses down her face.

Then finally he hit her lips, where he pecked at them endlessly driving Onika crazy. The heat between the two of them could be felt from miles away.

"Come home with me Onika, please?" Aubrey asked, his face inches away from her. just wanting to feel more of her

"Alright, only because you're the sweeterman" Onika replied kissing his lips tasting him again


He picked her up and carried her bridal, style back down to their cars. Seeing she had a nice black Benz g-class and he was driving an old 2000 jeep grand Cherokee  with no doors, he felt very understated in the car department, but once she saw his beach house he couldn't wait to see the look on her face.

As he headed back to his place he watched to make sure Onika was right along with him, once they pulled up, he entered the pass code to his gate and drove up the driveway. He parked his car in its usual spot and Nicki parked right next to it. Drake got out of his car and went to help Nicki out of hers. She gave him a timid smile as she placed her small hand in his and let him help her out of her car and then walk her towards the house.

Once they were in Drake walked them around the house, giving Nicki a quick tour, she was amazed by the house that was very dimly lit, clear glass windows all around allowing them to have a clear view of the shore in the distance, and from any room, they could see how the light of the moon reflected on the steady ocean. It felt like being on the beach, but with the comfort of being in a warm home.

"This is beautiful Aubrey." Onika said, staring at the view.

"Not as beautiful as you." Drake answered, observing Onika instead of the view. Nicki chuckled at that compliment.

"Thank you Aubrey, but you can cut the chase. You got me here already." Nicki answered, ripping her eyes from the window to look up in Aubrey's hazel orbs.

"What are you saying ? You really are gorgeous." Aubrey said, placing his index finger under her chin.

"Boy, I am aware of that." Onika laughed him off. "But what I'm saying is you wanted me here, you got me here, now no need to act like a gentleman anymore." Nicki explained and it was Aubrey's turn to be amused. He could understand what she was trying to say. Indeed, at first  when he laid his eyes on her at the beach club all he wanted from her was a one night stand, all he wanted was sex and there was no hiding it, she knew, but the moment he got closer to her, he felt that connection he never felt before and which left him wanting more; he didn't only craved a physical connection with her anymore, he would even say that it had withdrawn to the second plan.

"You're here indeed, and maybe we should take advantage of it and get to know each other." Aubrey spoke before holding his hand out.  Onika shook her head at him before placing her small hand in his. Drake lead them around the house and up the suspended stairs, which participated to the uncluttered character of the house, making it feel even more like they were just out on the beach in a way.

Drake lead them through the house for a little longer until they reached a door and he opened it revealing the master bedroom.

"I know what you might be thinking. But it's not that." Aubrey said, stepping aside to let Onika walk in.

"What is it then ?" Nicki asked, stepping in the room and walking in a little further as Drake closed the door behind them and followed her in.

"As I told you , I want to get to know you. You seemed too like the view earlier, it's even more beautiful from up here." Drake explained leading Nicki to the balcony. He took a seat on the outdoor love seat and looked up at Nicki who was standing in the balcony's doorway.

"Thought we could talk." Drake spoke making direct eye contact with Nicki who gave him a small smile before walking towards him and took a seat on the other side of the love seat.

She sat there and quietly looked at the horizon. She looked at the moon's blurry reflect on the ocean, she took a deep breath, breathing in some fresh air, hoping it would calm her down, for some odd reason she was slowly getting nervous, she could feel Drake's stare at her and was hoping he couldn't decipher her demeanor, she couldn't explain how he made her feel nor why he made her feel that way, all she knew was that it was a new feeling she was experiencing.

"You are so lucky to have such a view, it's so relaxing."  Nicki spoke up still staring at the ocean.

"I am." Drake confirmed, referring more at the view he had of her than of the shore."

" I take it you don't live in this side of the city." Drake wondered trying to spark up a conversation. He was feeling nervous as well, just like Nicki he wasn't used to this. No woman never made him feel nervous, they were preys to him, he would make them nervous not the other way around, he couldn't understand himself what was going on with him.

"Nope. I'm not too far though. You just can't see the ocean from my house." Nicki shrugged.

"Anyways, what are we talking about ?" Nicki asked finally gathering the courage to look at Drake which she regretted right away as just the sight of him was enough to give her that feeling she couldn't understand.

"How about you tell me who Onika is ?" Drake asked and Nicki chuckled at that, she really didn't know how she was supposed to feel about talking about herself to a complete stranger.

"How about you tell me who Aubrey is first ?" Nicki returned the question making Drake chuckle at his turn.

"I'd gladly do that baby girl, what do you want to know ?" Drake asked, wrapping an arm around her to bring her closer to him. Nicki didn't even try to resist and laid her head on his chest.

"For starters what is a fine man like you doing out here in Miami?" Nickis said, giggling

"Well I actually own a real estate business, and this is just one of my houses. I actually reside in Toronto, Canada. I help out my mother from time to time up there, I was just able to help her get the surgery she needed. Right now I'm on vacation." Aubrey replied, looking deep into Nicki's eyes, he couldn't stop staring at her beautiful face

Nicki looked at him and smiled, a man who takes care of his mother is a man worth keeping around.

"Aww well that's wonderful! Real estate huh ? I never took you for a guy to do that. A Canadian? " Nicki said.

"Yeah. I guess you never know where life takes you. I can truly say I have been blessed." Aubrey replied

"Any kids,wives, girlfriends?" Nicki asked, he just seemed to good to be true.

"Nah, just a lot of heart breakers, who were just into me for the money. " Aubrey replied with a confused look on his face.

"Alright, well what made you pick me, out of all of those girls?" Nicki asked propping herself up onto his chest.

Aubrey chuckled there were a million things that had attracted him to her, she had to ask this question he could go on for hours about all of the reasons why he'd chosen her.

"Well, I guess at first it was your beauty. The way your hair flowed, the movement within your hips as if you're born an islander, your face wow like a rare piece of art, from the curves of your dimples, to the way you bite your lips when you get nervous. You are as readable as it comes as long as that person is observed. Then when I heard your accent.. Boy that drove me crazy. I mean in all honesty, you are irresistible! I wanted you from the moment I saw you, and the feeling of nervousness.. I haven't felt that with any other woman. Sorry for rambling baby girl." Aubrey said, licking his lips and looking down nervous. There he was again ,they barely knew each other and there he was talking like he'd known her for years.

Nicki had a smile for miles, no man had ever described her in such elegance, and beauty. She was at a loss for words. She bit her lip. Then she felt his thumb gently pull her bottom lip from her teeth, her dimples deepened, her breathing seemed to stop, her heart thumping out of her chest.

"So baby girl, can you tell me about yourself ?" Aubrey asked itching to hear her sweet voice again

"Uhh umm, yeah sure. I am actually an islander born in Trinidad.  I moved out to New York, South Side Jamaica Queens precisely when I was young, about 5. But when I got older I knew after high school I wanted to start my own clothing line. So I moved out to Miami, and now I have about three businesses in Florida. I'm about to open up a shop in New York I can't wait." Nicki said still frazzled by him.

"I knew it, and that's where the accent is from. What's the name of your shop? I love a woman who is independent. " Aubrey said, moving his hands lower down her waist, he wanted to see how she'd react.

Nicki was the one sprung now as she watched his hands move, and she was struggling to remain calm. On the inside her body was screaming for his hands to feel all of her, the lust was oozing off of the both of them.

"Yep got that Queens in me. My shop is called Minajesty. You have probably seen it around here. " Nicki said, pushing herself against him more, if he was going to play so was she.

"You know you're not going to win this game Onika. I love watching you react, it's pleasing me." Drake said with a smirk making Nicki chuckle.

"What game Aubrey ? I'm just getting comfortable." Nicki said as she looked back at him.

He just smirked at her, she was testing him and he knew it.

 "Anyways, I have actually been in your store exquisite items, I just bought a purse for my mother from there, You know the square black one you have with the gold accents?" Drake explained.

"Oh you have good taste that's one of my favorite purses out of my colbesspback...........I'm sure your mother will love it." Nicki said, surprised that he would actually remember the details, usually when guys like him walked in her store to get a present they'd get the first thing at hand, just this said a lot about him.

"But anyways, any children, husbands, boyfriends?" Aubrey asked, resting his face into her neck as he slid down to be face height with her.

 Nope , just shitty guys who are now out of my life." Nicki replied, getting goosebumps as she felt his breaths against her neck.

"Well I'm glad those shit heads are gone because I'm here" Aubrey said in a whisper as he kissed her neck.

Nicki let out a slight moan, and clasped his hands within hers, making Nicki relax every part of her body. He was so intoxicating, the lust, comfort, intimidation, drove her crazy.

 You know I'm glad you're here because I'm ready to play." Nicki said, taking their hands and moving then slowly up her stomach to her breast and then down again.

"Ready ? You sure baby ?" He said getting interrupted by the feeling of himself hardening against her slow movements of their hands

"Mhmm" was all Nicki could reply as she felt Drakes breathing get ragged. She bit her lip, she was winning by getting her way and she was loving every minute of it.

Not wanting to lose, Aubrey let go of one of Nicki's hands to give him access to her body. She was still in a tight black bikini which had her cleavage spilling out with her hot pink pareo covering her bottoms which she was tightly squeezed in. With this outfit on Aubrey was in heaven.

Nicki was now nervous he had rested his hand on her lower abdomen, but she watched carefully as she saw his hand slowly slithering towards the knot which kept her pareo together. She looked up into his hazel orbs, which met her brown ones.. They were staring deeply at each other as his hand undid the knot.

Not a single sound could be heard from the both of them as he pushed the material which was once the pareo out of the way, Aubrey leaned in to kiss her neck as he let his hand rub gently against her pearl which on lightly cover by her bottoms. Nicki gasped, her mind was lost, her eyes closed as she felt his touch. He kept rubbing up and down in slow movement.

Nicki tightly squeezed the one pair of hands, they still held together. Drake sucked down with her neck as he sped up the rubbing motion. Nicki let out light moans lost in ecstasy.

Aubrey pulled away from rubbing her and kissing her neck to untie the strings of her bottoms. He slid them off to see them glistening with all of her juices. He wanted to be face deep in her, her scent hit the air as the breeze carried it to him. His mouth was watering, Nicki was irresistible.

"Baby girl let me taste you" Aubrey whispered into her neck

Nicki got up and moved her way to the edge of the love seat he had. She laid back and propped up her legs ready for the attack Aubrey was about to unleash.

Aubrey got up and took off his shirt, and shorts to only be left in his boxers, he got on the love seat to be face level with her adunanne. He wasted no time and licked from her slit to her pearl. The swirled his tongue around her pearl, wear he made the letter z with his tongue against her. Then he slid back down to engulf the juices flowing from her.

Nicki watched his every movement making her even more turned on, his warmth against hers made her feel so good. She watched as he made his way back up to her pearl again, licking, sucking, and releasing to breath. As if things couldn't get any more blissful he inserted two fingers moving them in and out, arching them like the way the waves move in and out on the beach. By now she was letting out moans for the whole town to hear, she shoved Aubrey's face in deeper to smother him and she pushed her hips back bucking along with his motions.

Eyes closed breath ragged, reaching her climax Nicki moaned.

"auh auh shiittt, don't stop.. RrrIght there"

Which motivated Aubrey to lick faster and pump harder, as he felt her contracting around his fingers he moved his face down and let his fingers take over the rubbing as the waterfall of her juices poured out into his mouth, where he had licked her clean.

Out of breath Nicki smiled at Aubrey, as he came near for a kiss, she could taste herself and understood why he was so wrapped up in her.

"You are just amazing baby girl I swear there is no wrong thing about you, but I told you I would win in the end" Aubrey said, sitting up to just watch her get herself together, she rolled her eyes, and propped herself upright.

"Who said I was tapped out ? I thought we were just beginning." Nicki said, pulling on his legs to help lay him flat.

He laughed at that.

"What do you think you are doing ?" Aubrey said, astonished by her sudden urge of confidence.

"I'm going to ride the shit out of you." she said in her Trini accent

He smirked. 

"Well I'm going to make sure you go the distance gyal" he replied.

Nicki pulled off his boxers to see the curved manhood, which seemed to be a big challenge in length and width for her tiny self. But she wanted him inside her more than anything.

As she hovered over him, she gave him a sweet kiss on the lips before grabbing his length and slowly going to sit down on him.

When he felt her warmth hit him, Aubrey's eyes dilated, he looked at her breathing heavily, as all of him was fitting into her tight wet sex. He was at a loss for words, as he watched her begin to slowly buck her hips back and then forward again.

Her hands dig into his chest, he gripped tightly to her hips. Nicki proper herself more upwards were the moon hot her perfectly, her silhouette was seen bouncing on Aubrey. She took all of him moaning his name endlessly.

Aubrey was grunting and was gripping her hips even tighter, she was not something you could tame. But he couldn't lose not like this, he spread his legs out more allowing him more access to maneuver himself in control. He began thrusting into her as soon as she came back down.

Her soft moans turned into high pitched ones of his name. Aubrey pounded even faster, causing her whole body so shake, the intensity was insane, she still wanted more, she didn't want him to stop the pain was no where near the pleasure she was feeling.

Aubrey was so infatuated with the way she seemed to carry this melody with her moans, her face was so sexy he could see the fight, she was having with herself not to let him break her down again. But as he slowed down to just sensual hard thrust Nicki's body caved as she tightened around him, and she pushed herself against him rolling her hips again.

They both had never had a person make them feel the way they felt in this moment  climaxing together juices flowing, breaths ragged, but they fell into an embrace, holding tightly onto another.

Nicki lay there listening to his heart-beat a mile a minute, he was amazing.

"I must say baby girl you have got me sprung" Aubrey said rubbing Nicki's back.

Nicki laughed against his chest.

"Well I told you I would play too"

They lay in each other's arms, and their eyes drifted off the view before them. 

"Are we thinking about the same thing ?" Nicki asked lowly just then realizing that they just had sex on the balcony for the whole town to see and hear. 

"Well, now the neighbors know my name for sure." Drake chuckled making Nicki laugh. 

After that they lay in each other's arms, enjoying the soft breeze that grazed their skin. Soon Nicki's eyelids felt heavy and soon she drifted off to sleep while Drake softly played with her hair. When he realized she was asleep Drake got Nicki inside and laid her on the bed before heading for the shower, he took a very quick shower and got to the closet where he got some sweat pants for himself and one of his T-shirts, he pulled his pants on and went to the bedroom where he found Nicki sound asleep laying in the middle of the bed with her hair sprawled around her face. This sight made him smile.

He picked her up and pulled the shirt over her head, all that without waking he up. He then laid her back down on the bed and laid next to her before pulling the covers over their bodies. He kissed her forehead and wrapped his arms around her before closing his own eyes and drifting off to sleep.

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The next morning, Nicki woke up at the rays of the sun shining in the room, she slowly opened her eyes and noticed she wasn't in a familiar place, she felt his arm wrapped around her body and his body pressed onto the back of hers. She carefully snuck out of his embrace making sure she wouldn't wake him up.  Once she was out of his grip Nicki sat up and looked at him reminiscing about the night before's event.

"Go back to sleep baby girl."  Drake spoke still half asleep making Nicki chuckle.

"How do you know I was up ?" Nicki asked, laying back down next to him.

"I don't know, I guess I was missing something." Drake answered, opening one eye and pulling Nicki closer to him. She laid her head on his chest and started aimlessly tracing patterns on his arm, soothing him back to sleep as she stayed awake, staring off into space, being there in his arms felt so right and she was just perfectly comfortable with it. It was her first time in years waking up in bed with someone she genuinely felt connected to and it felt amazing all the more so as their connection even if it started that way had nothing to do with physical or sexual attraction, they just connected on another level that was above it, they didn't even have to have sex yet to feel so close to one another, but on another hand she was feeling weird, she didn't know what it meant or where any of it was supposed to go, she was torn in two minds about it she didn't know if she wanted to lay in his arms for ever or get out of his arms run home an never see him again.


Nicki slid out of Drake's arms for the second time. She sighed, staring at him loving the way the sun made his caramel skin glow, she sighed again before ripping her eyes from the sight before her and getting up from the bed, she then started gathering her clothes.

"Are you leaving just now ?" Drake asked, startling Nicki.

"Do you have a motion detector or what is it ?"  Nicki asked with a chuckle as she sat at the end of the bed.

"It's something like that yeah." Drake said finally opening his eyes and getting up, he crawled towards Nicki and softly pecked the corner of her lips, not sure of how she'd react if he actually kissed her. But he was reassured when Nicki grabbed his face and pressed her lips against his.

"For the info, I wasn't trying to leave, I was just heading for the shower." Nicki explained watching Drake get up and grabbing his robe.

"You look gorgeous in my clothes by the way." Drake commented.

"Thank you... I guess" Nicki answered before following Drake in the en suite. He gave her everything she needed for her shower and kissed the side of her head before letting her head for the shower.

"Hey" Nicki called turning around towards Drake, who was about to start brushing his teeth.

"Care to join ?" Nicki asked with a lascivious smile and Drake grinned at her before licking his lips and making his way towards her.


"Don't have to ask me twice."

I hope you liked it. I'm not back for good, I just had a collab I wanted to post. Big thanks to my partner in crime DrickiSoldier. I love her stories and working with her, this has to be one of my fav's that have been published. If you want to read her stories follow the link:http://drickisoldier.blogspot.com/ , and to follow her on tumblr go to the link here: http://www.pinkfridayandovofrenchie.tumblr.com/. 

Comment if you like or have any suggestions, more comments I see the more likely I am to post sooner. Have a good day :) !!! 

Kismet

 Nicki's POV

The light hit her back as she was focused deep swiping the brush across the canvas, her straight raven black hair began to slowly fall from her lazy bun. She couldn't get him out of her mind, his face, his touch, the other man she was dreaming of. This is why she had to paint him the man of her dreams.

As the sun began to set in her New York condo, orange began to fill her office all around her, she stopped her painting to watch the colors begin to change from the orange to a rose pink, she closed her eyes letting herself feel his breath graze across her neck again. His strong mahogany scent filled her nose, the paint brush dropped everything went silent as she moved her hands around her neck, then down to her breast. Light moans escaped, images of lust flooded her mind. Then she heard a knock, she opened her eyes as they fluttered back to reality.

Running to the door, she failed to realize she was just in a t-shirt. The white button down, revealing most of her body. She opened the door to what she guessed was a man, with the biggest bouquet of flowers she had seen. She couldn't even see the delivery man's face, all she could see was the beautiful vase and flowers: it was filled with pink roses, lilies, orchids, tulips, and baby's breath.

The man delivering the flowers was too fixated on her hourglass figure and the cleavage exposed through the shirt she was wearing to see her snatch the flowers from him, and then slam the door in his face. He was stuck for a moment in time, she was just so .. what was the word he has been looking for ?  "Gorgeous! She had thick long straight black hair, a face of a goddess, even with the door closed the image of her was still so transfixed in his mind. So when he finally saw the door shut, he could only say one thing.

Aubrey's POV

"Damn" Aubrey said under his breath as he walked away from the door, another perfect girl had been snatched away to another perfect guy.

Aubrey had never been noticed, he was just your typical flower delivery guy, handing flowers to the girlfriends,wives,mothers, and loved ones. This has been just a side job, or his way of helping his mother out. His mother loved her flower shop, but had trouble finding the right people to hire so Aubrey of course took over the job for his mother's sake. What many people didn't know was that Aubrey could spit lyrical raps like no one else but had yet to be discovered. He headed back to the van to go deliver another set of flowers to yet another person.

Nicki's POV

Onika looked at the flowers, saw the note and rolled her eyes.

"Thought I could say sorry with some of these which aren't nearly as beautiful as you my queen, Love Stephen"

The flowers were exquisite, and would be a great new piece to her paintings as soon as she were to paint it. But the meaning of the flowers meant nothing to her, Stephen had been one of many shitty guys that had come her way, and of course for some odd reason he cheated.. with the little white bitch who was his assistant. For Onika she knew this was the final straw, she didn't want to date anyone for a while, maybe she would get a dog and live out the rest of her life on her own.

But recently, she had been having these dreams of this man, 6"2, light tan skin, freckles. pink plump lips, he was tall, muscular, and mmm just so sexy. Lately in Onika's dreams the man had been taking her on lavish dates, and giving her the time of her life in bed. She knew this man was officially than the man of her dreams. From the way he smirked at her to the hazel color eyes that lit up her world whenever he feasted  his eyes on her. But one thing was missing from all of the dreams, his name.

So as she headed back to her office to finish the painting of her mystery dream man, she couldn't help but wonder when he would come her way in real life. For now she'd paint him into reality and hope that her dreams were filled with more lust.

Aubrey's POV

As Aubrey headed back to the flower shop after his final delivery this girl hadn't left his mind, it was like he knew her and he just couldn't pinpoint it from where. When he hit the back of the shop he found his mother asleep in her office chair, he chuckled to himself.

"Gosh Mama, how many times are you going to over work yourself?" He said silently as he gently poked at his mother's shoulder to wake her

"Aubrey ? I'm sorry, did I fall asleep again ?" Sandi said, getting up

"It's alright Mama, lets head home, maybe we could pick up pizza for dinner ?" Aubrey said, taking his mother's hand and heading to the car.

As they walked into the pizza place and sat quietly waiting for his order, his mother noticed his eyes and mind seemed to be wandering off somewhere else. She felt bad, I mean what son, 22 year old boy wants to work for his mother and then have to drive her home everyday.

"Aubrey, I know it may get annoying at times having to deal with me, but I promise I will find someone to take over your job soon." Sandi said, sighing

"Ma, you could never be annoying and I love working with you its the best. What would make you think that ?" Aubrey said, looking at his mother intently

"Well you look so distracted just having dinner with me.. So I thought that you might just be bored of your old mom" Sandi said, laughing at how silly she must have sounded earlier

"Ma never, and your young! Ma remembers order number 8 with all of the big flowers, well I brought the flowers the girl she was so beautiful.. long black hair, smooth caramel skin, and the body of an.. opps sorry Ma she was just so pretty, but she took the flowers and didn't even get a look at my face before she shut the door in my face. " Aubrey said

"Oh boy, you and these girls.. maybe she will get another set of flowers and you could, smooth talk your way into her heart.. Because with that big of a bouquet the boy she was with before probably cheated and is going to try and get her back" Sandi said, smiling, after many years of business she knew what almost every bouquet

As their pizza got to the table they ate, laughed, and headed home. Aubrey loved his mother, she was always so positive and her happiness seemed to radiate like the sun. He didn't know where he would be without her.

Nicki's POV

Onika sat up staring at her phone wondering if she should call Stephen, but she knew better than to fall for the tiny trap she felt like he had set for her with the flowers. She decided to hop into the shower instead, she turned on her Bluetooth speaker and began to jam out to some Beyonce. As Beyonce's words from "best you never had" she let the water hit her back, the feeling of serenity hit the peacefulness of just her in the music, the way the water felt against her skin, and the smells of her freshly lit candles put her in the mood for some alone time. So when she exited the shower, she got dried off and got into her light pink silk robe. She sat for a while pondering if she should really bring out her trusty vibrator or not. But instead she said "fuck it" and decided to go and release some of her pent up anger and stress.

In the middle of pleasuring herself, she heard the phone ring, she ignored the first three calls as she was nearing her climax. Head tilted back, feeling every vibration hitting the right spot, she was reaching her max, as she began to circle her pearl a few more times for a release, the phone rang again endlessly. Tired of hearing the noise she reached to turn off the volume, but instead ended up answering the call. She hadn't been able to get a break today

"Hello" she said into the phone after shutting down her whole relaxation time.

"Baby, did you get the flowers? I'm so sorry.. Baby ?" Stephen said into the phone frantically

"Yes I got your I'm sorry ass flowers, what do you want Stephen ?" Onika said, getting even more agitated

"Nicki, I love you and I know I messed up but I want you back.. please baby" Stephen pleaded into the phone.

Onika looked at her phone laughed and pushed the end button. She went to go wash the mess she made, and then hopped into her bed to finally get some rest. As she tossed and turned for a moment, but then sleep hit, her eyes felt like weights on her face and she peacefully drifted off to sleep.

Onika's Dream 

She turned her head to see him the mystery chasing after her, she was running through the forest? It was a place filled with flowers from left to right, he was laughing, as she was smiling and running through what now she had figured to be a rose garden. She stopped at the pink roses her favorite, she shoved her nose in for a sniff of its deep floral scent.

Touching the petals which were as smooth as a baby's skin, and just when things couldn't have gotten even more pleasurable.. the mystery man wrapped his arms around her waist and rested his head on her shoulder.

"You could have all you want with me just open your eyes Onika, look for what's in front of you" he said in his deep voice

It sent chills down her spine, she turned to look at him only for her scenery to change again. She was now in bed looking down, she saw her bare skin in the sheets. She smiled and waited for the lust filled moments ahead of her

End of Dream 

When she awoke, she did her morning routine, and then headed to the office to stare at the picture she painted of her mystery dream man. She was going to get him one way or another.

As she got ready to leave for the day, she slipped on a hoodie and some leggings, put on her winged eyeliner, and added a dab of pink lip gloss. She didn't know where she wanted to go, but all she knew was that she had to get out of her apartment.

As she walked down the street of New York she took in all of the busy people, sights , and smells. Until she heard little barks. Her eyes lit up as she searched for the source of the sound.

As she saw the lady with all of her little English bulldog puppies Onika couldn't help but let out an "aww", she knew these dogs were anything far from cheap, but to have a new companion a price didn't matter, all she'd have to do is sell another painting of hers or another big time artist.

Her eyes hit the biggest boy of them all he had a black overlay, with light markings of tan color off played with white underneath. He was precious and seemed to think Onika was the same, he jumped up at her multiple times until she picked him up and then he showered her with kisses.

Without a thought in her mind, she asked "how much for this big boy ?"

The lady saw the attraction between the two and was feeling quite generous, so she said "1100, comes with papers and all, he will make a great stud "

Without another, though Onika said "I'll take him"

She'd finally gotten her little companion, she paid the lady took the papers and headed off to the nearest pet store, where she bought, food, bowls , a bright red harness and collar, and a bright red leash to match. Now just to name the little chubby guy?

When she got back to the apartment her pup was all worn out and had taken a place in the middle of her office to sleep. He snored, she couldn't help but giggle.

"What should your name be precious ?" She said when she picked him up and carried him back to her bed.

Aubrey's POV

Aubrey woke up from an amazing dream about the mystery girl whom he had dropped off flowers to.

He was now on a mission to get her..

Sorry for the delays on updates! To be honest I just hit a lil writers block funk.. But I'm back not exactly on a schedule anymore but just whatever I spit out. I don't know what stories will be continued.. But hopefully I can get most of them updated. I have been wanting to take a new approach at writing so here's an example of what I'm trying to write. I just want to give a big thanks to pinkfridayovofrenchie aka My Boo Fatima for giving me the name.. and also a collab we are doing for a one shot I should have out soon! If you're not following Fatima her tumblr name was stated above and here's the link to her stories http://drickisoldier.blogspot.com/

As always comment if you like, let me know any suggestions, and if you ever are interested on taking a look and helping me improve my writing.. hit my fanmail or ask box on tumblr !!