When I woke up it was 12 in the afternoon. Shit I said, getting out of Trina’s grasp, I went to go find a robe she has to have something, i tossed around her clothes till I found it this little thing she calls a robe and bright baby blue it was so her I couldn't help but laugh. I looked back at her, she slept so peacefully, I didn't have the time to play around, I had just missed another day of school. I went down to the showers where every girl stared at me, I ignored them undressing and hopping in feeling the hot water hit my body like being awoken from a good dream there was comfort.
When I was dressed Trina was awake and just sitting on the bed looking at me, I had to go.
“Will I ever see you again, or was this just confession and sex time ?” she asked, her green eyes pierced my heart, there was still something there I hadn't felt in almost forever, not just the thought of love but to be “IN’ love.
“This was just the beginning of something new, we are restarting just on a fun note, I mean you know I got money and who I fuck with so hit me up when you wanna chill or even if just need anything, Trin I mean anything, let me know I'm here for you, i love you and don't ever forget that” I said adjusting her shirt I was wearing.
“You love me still after all I have done to you ? I don't deserve you, I don't want you back, but I want you back if you get what I'm saying” She said walking over to me
“I know you're my poison remember , I Could never stop loving you I'm just trying not to let myself feel, I don't wanna be hurt again.” I said as she pecked my lips
“I’m so sorry you never deserved me just disappearing who knows where we would have been there actually could have been an “us” but I let it all go with my actions, I just couldn't handle you leaving, I'm broken and still am learning how to handle things.” Trina said, holding my hand, we just got back to the start that quick, I was weak
“Jasmine, this is bullshit you leave don't go to school and don't even answer calls ? Pick up your phone and call me back.. please babe” Nicki said through the phone
Then she got dressed and headed over to Drake’s.
When Drake opened the door, he was surprised it was Nicki, they had made up, but he didn't think she would come see him so soon, he looked at her then he saw it, she was a mess, hair in a messy bun, she was in sweats and a was that one of his sweaters Jasmine must have left it.
She looked up and then just pushed past me to walk in.
“Have you even tried to call your sister? I mean she has been gone for quite some time now, this isn't like her to just go.” Nicki said, plopping down on my couch
“Yeah I have Nic, don't come up in here acting like I know more than you, shit she fucks you more anyways” I said, mumbling then sat at the end of the couch
“Whatever Aubrey call her again, I just don't get it” Nicki said, scooting closer
I picked up the phone it rang rang
“Hello , seriously you guys need to get off my ass I can't just go escape for one minute without being barraged with calls like i'm some lost child. I’m in therapy getting better I am not just going to go off the deep end again” Jasmine yelled into the phone I put her on speaker as I saw Nicki crack a smile
“Ok, you know you had me and Nika over here stressing, I guess it's time to let the kid finally fly on her own, huh?” I asked as Nicki bit her lip.
“Oh gosh tell Nika I'm fine and I love her” Jasmine said
“Love you too babe, you had me worried at least leave a note or something” Nicki said, taking the phone
“Oh so are you two like finally together or am I just dreaming ?” Jasmine said, laughing hysterically
Nicki looked up at me, shit if she wanted to be mine she could. I looked her and smiled as reassuringly “Yeah we together so no more late night Sexcapades with my girl she could be your sister some day” I said
“Oh whats a matter Aubrey you don't wanna share cause your sister does it better? But that's ok, I got me a couple people to keep me held down while you guys are coming together as they say” Jasmine said
“Well whoever these people are better not break your heart or else your big brother is going to have to give them the beat down.” I said, Nicki smiled hard exposing her dimples
“Don't worry you guys , but um I got shit to handle so love you byyeee” Jasmine said
“Love you too” Nicki and I said in unison
I turned on the TV, I knew us being together alone would only be for this moment, then we would have to get out of this little vacation and get back to the real world and figure this whole relationship thing out. I reached an arm around her waist and scooped her into my lap. Laying back on my chest, we looked down at each other If only moments like these could last forever.
When I walked into my empty condo I had really wished I would have just stayed with Aubrey. I could have lain in his arms for hours, days, weeks. We just vibe off each other he was my muse, to keep pushing to want more out of this crazy life of mine.
I laid up in my bed, I knew I needed to get back out in the studio. I needed to get back into the game, now I had what I wanted I could finally focus on us. Aubrey & Onika…
As the Ramon came closer with the needle about to make contact with my skin I winced as the needle pushed the ink in, right there on my side, I got OVO it was something that could be hidden from the public but I knew would mean a lot to Aubrey.
“Nika smile” Jasmine said snapping pics as my face squashed up.
“Stop Jaz this shit hurts hold my hand or talk to me about something” I said giving her the death glare
Her phone lit up she smiled and rolled her eyes. Another three months had rolled by three. I was still in shock, Aubrey and I had been able to visit each other here and there, but no real dates, no real love making, just quick kisses, rubs and I love you’s being thrown. One of us needed to move and I had a feeling that I was the one who was going to make the big step. I thought moving closer to the family would help deter me from work, but only it just kept me even more swamped within it, this little tattoo break was costing me wasted studio time but it gave me an excuse to finally see Jasmine.
“who you talking to Trin or Ant ?” I asked as she pushed her hand into mine, I grabbed tightly she didn't move her eyes from that phone.
“Ant, he's trying to take me out, I just don't know if I want to be out when I know the papz be creeping around every corner, I just “hung out” with Trina last week, we had fun, but she knows Anthony is trying to get serious with me so we are weaning off of each other a bit” Jasmine said looking up at me “Why you getting this thing anyways ?” Jasmine asked
“I just wanna little piece of Aubrey everywhere I go and this is it, he doesn't even know i'm getting it cause I know he would stop me” I replied
I thought about the other night when we met up in the studio. How close we seemed, but yet we still weren't where we needed to be. Maybe if I could just get some alone time with him the heavy tension would soon fade.
As I looked down at my phone I was surprised Jaz was finally texting me, she had been off in her own world lately from from the dancing to traveling back and forth to see Ant and this chick she had been talking about.
Lil sis: Umm you are never going to guess whatcha girl is over here doing, whens the last time you dicked her down cause she sure seems like she needs some.. I could take care of it lol :P
Big Bro: What is she doing?.. we haven't done anything we don't have the time for that… but I don't need your help in that department.
Lil sis: Guess you will have to find out what she did when you come see her. How can y’all go three months with no fucking I can barely last a week?!
Big Bro: Whatever love changes things sis
Lil sis: Mhmm well you need to give it to her that's all I have to say, come out here and take her away from all this
Big Bro: I’m headed out now keep her company
Lil Sis: Will do :)
I got on the jet and headed out to New york to surprise my baby girl...
Just a filler for the next lusty filled chapter..
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