Mask

It was hard even being around her after I found out she was with him. I swear I tried so many times to give her my all and then she just left me for him. The girl I loved couldn't even give me a hug on stage a “handshake” guess we just weren't there anymore. I gave her my all, my fucking all just to be trampled, and misguided, I hated being me.

Drake took the bottle of Hennessy to the head, thirty minutes later he was calling her at first he just let it ring and ring, then hung up once it hit voicemail, but the hennessy was finally kicking in and he was tired of putting on this mask, the fakeness that he was happy for her ,  because he wasn't he was pissed.

“Listen here Heartbreaker, I just want you to know that I still love your ass after all you have done to me, I was the one there for you during your break up it wasn't him it was me, Drake was there, You wouldn't know what real love was if it hit you in the face, I thought at least you could keep it friendly with me.. You know what Nicki fuck you and that nigga who you call your boo” Drake yelled into the phone

He didn't let up, he left a couple more voicemails just for the fun of it..

“Fuck you, I can't believe you just fuckkk.. I wish I didn't love your ass so much”

“Nicki why do I have to wear this fake happiness that I’m happy for you when I’m not, why can't you just love me.. whats wrong with me.. what did I do wrong”

“Baby please just call me back”

He passed out with the bottle in his hand. This had been the first of many voicemails that Nicki would receive from him..

She looked at her phone, got out of his grasp, and went to go listen to the recent messages he’d left her. She cried every time she heard them, was she really doing what was best for them ? How could she just give her all to someone who was so good so pure, so perfect, she was the monster, she needed someone who wasn't as good so she could feel adequate. How was this tour in Canada supposed to work. Drake was acting a fool not himself lately, maybe she would ask him to stay while she toured. Just for this one, all the instagram pictures it must have hurt him to see her with him.

The Tour

I wanted something to help represent the song we did together so I put on my black lace mask and they put me in my tight sheer body suit. My hair in a cute high ponytail, I couldn't be more happy to perform, but also never more nervous, I heard Drake was coming to surprise me. My man stayed back like I asked I just couldn't hurt Drake more than I already did. As the I began performing, I was anticipating the moment he would come out. As soon as I heard the beat for Only come on the crowd screamed, I turned to my right there he was in an red plaid flannel, timbs, and a couple chains, every feeling emotion came back. He rapped alongside of me looking at me from time to time, we barely exchanged words the fans could feel the tension. “thank you for coming Drake” I said, giving him a side hug.

“Anything for  you Nic, come on Toronto give her some noise” Drake said exiting the stage.

She couldn't answer phone calls, whether I was drunk or not, then she just has her assis ant ask me to do a guest appearance in my hometown, this was fucked up. I couldn't take it, I couldn't take her. That mask she wore just represented as fake as she was to me and I them same. I hated her one second and love her the next. Why couldn't things ever go right.

“Alright lets go back to my place” I said to the boys. They just nodded and headed out, in the car it was quiet and everyone was looking at me “what” I spat.

“nothing man you just all pissy about this Nicki shit, why don't you actually man up and talk to her” 40 said and all the boys nodded in agreement.

“The shit between her and I is none of your concern, thanks for the advice though” I said sarcastically.

When we headed in the door, I grabbed a bottle and a couple blunts and headed straight up to my room, where I had a feeling I would be for the rest of the night.

He left so fast I didn’t even get a chance to talk to him, shit I had fucked up. But I just couldn't let myself fall and ruin the friendship we had. But I loved him too much to see him walk out of my life. I looked down at my phone, then got in the Benz and sped off to talk to him. “Shit” I yelled in the car I had left so fast I was still wearing this stupid mask, it was pinned to my head. I couldn't drive and remove it, I would just have to take it off when I got there.

As I pulled up to the gate there was a security pad. I was trying to think of what it would be when it hit 1208 I entered it and the gates swing open, I had tears in my eyes, he still was so far deep, why was I doing this, only to drag him deeper just as I was about to reverse and leave I heard a knock on the window. I unrolled it embarrassed there was Chubbs.

“Go in and talk to him before he gets too faded to even comprehend, You better fix this” Chubbs said with no emotion

I had been the one to break their friend and I needed to fix it, I walked into the house all the boys got quiet seeing me sulk pass them to go up to Aubrey’s room. As I walked up the stairs, I took deep breaths, I was ready for whatever storm was going to hit.

I hadn't touch the Hennessy I wasn't ready for that yet, but I had burned through two blunts and I was aiming for number three until I heard a knock at the door. Thinking it was one of the boys I unlocked it, then walked back over to the balcony not even turning around.

“Aubrey, can we talk” Her voice said, it pierced my ears rather my heart.

“why you even here, you’re wasting your time you got what you wanted, why don't you just go back with him, he’s the one for you, I mean you are wearing the ring right? “ I said sarcastically, I couldn't turn to look at her.

“Look i came to talk to you so that's what I’m here to do, whether or not you listen, all I can say  is that I tried Aubrey” NIcki said

“Well go ahead say your piece then leave” I said ashing out the blunt. Turning to see that mask on her face, I was trying hard to fight that smile, trying to form after looking at her sweet face.

I sat down on his bed, he sat in the chair across from me, he looked disgusted and I couldn't blame him, I was a bitch for what I had done to him, every time I caught myself falling I pulled back. Now in this relationship I had, I was the one wearing the mask in the beginning, but now with the ring , touring, and nights  i had begun to fall, but Aubrey always brought me back.

“Listen, I don't think I could say sorry enough for what I have done to you Aubrey, but I just couldn't let myself fall for you, you are too good to me, you have everything I wish I did, I can't just let myself fall for someone who loves me wholly for who I am, I will always need that little twist, i’m broken. You know I love you, but I’m the furthest thing from good for you. I just want us to move forward, can we please just move forward?” Nicki said on the verge of breaking down.

“So, I’m just supposed to take the fact that I can’t have the woman I love because she says i'm too good for her? Nah fuck that, you are acting dumb as hell right now. People fight for what they have, and I would fight every day until I die to get you, but no I’m too good, I swear you’re just like the others, maybe even worse. You wanna move forward drop the act, get me, have me, want me, love me.” I said, looking at her face, she was crying my one weakness

“Aubrey.. You know.. I just.. please don't make me Choose, why are you doing this to me, you do this to me I can't focus, i can;t be happy because all I can see and want is you.. But I can't make you broken like me. “ Nicki said, trying to take off the mask as her eyes were getting irritated, from the mix of tears and makeup.

I watched her fiddle with the mask, then I finally got up and helped her take it out, our faces inches apart, I could feel her breath on my skin. It was driving me crazy, I handed her the mask.

“Choose or leave” I said, I couldn't see her face without all of the memories of what was almost an “us” running back.
“Aubrey..” Nicki began to talk, but Drake pushed his lips onto hers

She deepened the kiss, grabbed the back of his head. He tugged at her bottom lip, she opened her mouth. As their tongues fought for dominance, he pushed her back on the bed, hovering over her. He pulled away and looked at her, it was all there in her eyes, body language, but what about her heart ?

“Choose or leave” Drake said again, then went to kiss on her neck, she didn't say anything she just starting letting her emotions take control, he took off her top. To see the bright red bra then he kissed down her chest. “Choose or Leave” he said again

She looked at but didn't say a word as he ripped her bra off her body then he stripped himself down to his boxers. She sat up and took off her jeans. She lay back down turned to her right to see her mask off and on the bed.

Drake started to suck on her nipples, making them warm and erect, he kept licking, sucking, Nicki just moaned out lightly. He kissed down her stomach. “Choose or leave” he said again breathlessly

Nicki pulled off her thong, with tears in her eyes, pushed Drake down on the bed, pulled off his boxers and hovered over him, letting her pussy gently rub over his manhood as he watched her kiss his scruffy cheeks, then plump lips. The spark hit for the umpteenth time, she moved down to his neck, chest. Aubrey couldn't take it, he had started to speak again”Onika you need to..”. She slid herself onto him, the warmth took over. She put her hands on his chest as she began slowly grinding herself on him. He licked his lips, watching her, so focused on him, only him, bouncing harder, he grunted. He grabbed her and started to pump in as she was coming down. She tilted her head back and started to let out her sweet cries “Uhh mhmmmm, ughh”. Drake pumped harder watching her whole entire body bounce, she looked down at him, trying to close her mouth, she couldnt, her mouth wanting to scream, moan, yell out how much she wanted him. It was too much for her.

He held her tightly as he switched positions with her laying her on the bed, she watched him pump harder and harder it was almost painful, but yet so blissful. She finally just let herself so “Papiii” “Aubreyy”. As he went faster, he said “Choose now, tell me who do you want now” he could feel himself twitch. He kept going he wasn't going to stop until he got his answer. He gripped tightly to her hips and hovered his face over her. “Choose NOW !” he grunted. Nicki looked into his hazel eyes the love and hurt that filled them, she couldn't just leave him again could she? “III.. choose.. shit.. Aubrey.. I choose.. YOU” she screamed as she let herself flow all over him, he released. As he held himself above her still stroking, he couldn't help but smile.

She looked at him, he finally got her all of her. When he finally climbed off of her he went to the bathroom setting up the bathtub. When it was filled she was still just laying in the bed catching her breath. He picked her up and slid him in with her. They both just sat there running the events that just happened through their heads. When Drake began to scrub her, she just grabbed his hand and turned to look at him. “I guess my mask is finally off huh ?” she said kissing him sensually and then let him get back to washing her.

When they lay in bed to go to bed, he watched her fall asleep and felt something poke his foot, he reached down to grab it, there it was the mask of feelings, he shoved it in the drawer finally feeling free and happy once again.