GFJ Prt.3

Carol's POV

I woke up to find Drake not on the couch but Sandi, I walked into Nicki's room quietly and opened the door to see Ciah clutched to her chest and Drake laying next her. Their hands intertwined. 

As a mother I didn't know how to feel finding a boy in her bed, but just as me being me I could see they both had something the other was lacking. Seeing them together put this warm feeling in my heart that i just couldn't explain.

I quietly closed the door and began to make breakfast. Nicki wasn't going to school today, she needed to stay home and get prepared for their first session together. I was nervous as ever she never reacted well to sessions alone or with others I was just hoping that some how this one would be different for her.

Nicki's POV

I woke up to see Ciah playing with Drake's face tugging at his ears and giggling as Drake made funny faces. I was still worried seeing Drake take all those pills and drinking but some how he made it through the night just fine. I kept looking and smiling at him and Ciah .. I couldn't wait to be normal and really have a family like this just getting to wake up to my son or daughter playing with my husband. I looked down to see our hands clutching each other once again I guess this was something I would have to get over and used to doing.

"Ciah baby you need to go potty ?" I asked

"Dwake took me mommy" Ciah responded

"Aw, Ciah remember you can't call me mommy you have to call me sissy" I said kissing his forehead

"Oh- tay" Ciah said reaching out for me

I picked him up and climbed on top of Drake .. "You ok ?" I asked

"Yeah lets go eat breakfast" he said sliding me off of him

We walked into the kitchen to see our mothers giggling away and smiling as they saw the three of us walk in, just at that same time Jelani walked through the door holding a bottle in his hand. I looked down as he stumbled back to his room.

"Is he ok ?" Sandi asked looking worried

"Uhh Yeah he's just been drinking a lot more lately" Carol responded

He had nights where he just went out and drank his life away, no one really understood why.

Ciah began to get antsy as I was trying to focus and get his food but my hand was shaking terribly.

"Nika" Carol said

"Yes mama ?" I said

"Focus baby feed Ciah" Carol said softly

"Sorry" I said softly

I started to feed Ciah again , but I heard things being thrown across the room Jelani was drunk, and now angry. I could feel my panic attack about to hit, the noise triggered me. I dropped the spoon and began to gasp for air..

"Nika ?" I heard my mom yell

When I woke up I was on the couch and Drake was holding Ciah as he had seemed to be falling to sleep crying. I didn't remember what had happened but I did know I was embarrassed as hell at the moment. I got up slowly as I saw Drake get up to go lay Ciah down.

Drake's POV

I watched as Nicki began to struggle to breath and then quickly pass out as she fell out of her chair I caught her and laid her gently on the couch. My mom ran and got a towel.. as Carol began sobbing uncontrollably...

My mother put the cold rag on Nicki's forehead and then went to comfort Carol during all this poor little Ciah began screaming and turning red, tears rolling , arms flying everywhere. I picked Ciah up and began to rock him.. He kept crying and screaming "Swissy swissy MOMMY" , I rubbed his back and kept saying she's ok buddy she's ok. I tried to process everything but of course my depression wouldn't let me... I was just trying to thing as Ciah was screaming.

Then there is a knock at the door and the police walked in..

"We're here to come get Jelani Maraj , where is he ? " They asked

I pointed to the back room they rushed back there and Jelani left in handcuffs. Carol cried even more and my mother went and checked on Nicki. Nicki .. shit.. I ran over to the couch where Ciah began to just stare at her and look at me.

"What's wrong wit sissy ?" He asked poking at my face

"She's sleepy" I said to him smiling

"What's dis ?" Ciah asked pointing at my freckles

"Freckles some people get them they are like little dots that god paints on your face" I said to Ciah poking his nose, gosh he looked so much like Nicki it was crazy

"I tired" Ciah said laying his head on my chest

5 minutes later he was passed out , I saw Nicki peek her eyes open and quickly shut them again. I went to give her space and lay Ciah down. When I got back Nicki was up getting water she stared down at the ground as she came back to the couch.

"I'm so sorry" Nicki said

"Hey no big deal it's not your fault, was it a trigger ?" I asked her watching her eyes fill with tears..

"Yeah" She said wiping the tears away

Ohh well that's something we could work out in our sessions they do help sometimes.. And I don't think we're leaving anytime soon my mom went to go pick up some clothes and food for dinner.

"Yeah I guess you're right, you guys are they best, I don't know how you deal with such a broken family like ours." Nicki said moving closer to grip my hand again

I felt calm "Everyone is imperfect, but see I you to me with your illness and mine we make a perfect match" I said chuckling "Basically we should be deadly to each other, but yet we help each other in the weirdest way.. our mothers do the same thing fill that problem the other needs fixed." I said looking deeply into her eyes watching her smile grow by the second, her cheeks turned the prettiest pink I have ever seen and her dimples deepened.

"You really are something special" She said as she reached up and kissed my cheek

I chuckled "Umm if you think so beautiful" I said licking my lips

"You need a nap Drake go lay down, come on I will lay with you" She said dragging me to her bed

I was exhausted I needed a way to process all of what was happening to me, and sleeping sometimes is the best way of solving those problems while I'm out cold sleeping. When I wake up they are there again but not as bad. I need to go back on my anti-depressant so I can drop these pills.

When we laid down I closed my eyes and passed right out....

Nicki's POV

I got up from the bed and went to go get Ciah I could hear him squirming in his crib. My mother and Sandi were drinking coffee and talking. I changed Ciah and went to get him a snack and his sippy cup.

"Nika baby , you good now ?" Carol asked handing her the sippy cup

"Yes mama" I said taking the sippy cup

"Nika ?" Carol said

"Yeah ma" I said starting to get irritated

"Umm I talked to your doctors and I'm starting you on anti-anxiety meds" Carol said softly

"What the hell ? I told you no to medicine I don't wanna have problems!" I said loudly setting Ciah down

"You need it Nika all these dizzy spells you're cutting too much oxygen off to your brain I don't like it you need meds it will help" Carol said

"Whatever I'm not arguing you think I'm so horrible I need pills I guess I will take them then" I snatched up Ciah and stormed out the house.

As we drove to the park the only thing I could think of was all the addicts I saw in the jungle. I had tears falling from my eyes like rain. Ciah was silent in the back not bubbly like normal. I sighed heavily I didn't like the effects my illness seemed to have on my brother, he's so young and already being affected by the things around him. I feel responsible horrible, worthless, and worried all at the same time. I needed to breath get some air and think.

We made it to the park and Ciah and I got out and went to go swing together , I kissed his forehead and held on to him tightly watching his smile grow as we swung back and forth.

Session 1 12:56 p.m

"Drake you have opened up pretty well, this session about your brother and dependency with some of the drugs, Onika ?" Dr.Johnson said

"Well I've talked about my anxiety, and the fact that I just started my pills today, what else is there to know" Nicki said dwindling her fingers w

"Why do you think your anxiety started ? What are your fears?" Dr.Johnson asked

"Uhh well " I looked to Drake for comfort .. How could I just open up to this lady ? Why did she have to know my business?

"Onika we are doing sessions to help you, you need to open up" Dr.Johnson pushed staring harshly at me

"Fuck you lady I didn't ask for this ! Why should I open up to you ? I have a mental illness some malfunction in my brain talking about my problems with you... How will that even help ? " I said irritated my head was throbbing from these pills

Drake looked at me and whispered "Nika you are in therapy to open up, who do you feel comfortable opening to, it does help somewhat."

I looked at him my eyes pleading to get out of here "I am comfortable opening up to you why can't I just do that I don't like this I need time she's to pushy" I whispered back

"Ma'am I don't think sessions are going to work for us, it seems Onika isn't ready for this kinda force within her treatment" Drake said grabbing my hand as we left without another word..

Our mothers looked pissed

Drakes POV

"It's just not going to workout mom she's not comfortable I guess we can work together on this open up to each other and help each other .. we could maybe do our own private session ?" I suggested on the car ride home

"Aubrey none of you are fucking therapist Carol and I pay good money for these private sessions and you guys just walk out like you own the place !"  Sandi snapped back

As they pulled up to Carols you could hear Nicki getting yelled at too.. We walked in and I got told to sit my ass down on the couch

"You guys are not going to throw money away, it's cool you guys get each other but how are you guys supposed to help each other ? You guys are both sick" Sandi yelled

"I know it seems crazy but we are both able to easily open up to each other and accept each other for our problems without judging, we don't need therapy when we have each other.. There's something that just attracts us to each other" I said to my mother

Nicki sat there dwindling her hands, biting her lips letting her day dreams take over of what their private sessions could be kissing touching and more.. Really truly opening up to each other..

"Fine, fuck it you do these private sessions Aubrey no more pills no more weed ! I want to see you clean within three months, you guys have three months to get this worked out that's it we will give you the house alone for an hour twice a week" Sandi said storming out

Carol ran after her, I looked down at Nicki her face had a sense of relief I could read her eyes and her body language everything lead to a sense of relief.

"Well I guess we could say this is the beginning to us" I said taking her face within my hands her skin was soft as feathers and when my lips touched hers something serenaded within my heart warmth took over, as I pulled away I stared at her.

Nicki's POV

I was taken a back by his kiss his lips were soft plump they made you yearn for more. We stared at each other for a moment, was this really the beginning of us ? A couple I would have hoped for more of something formal rather than just a kiss that took my breath away. I was confused I bit down on my lip hard thinking things over.

"What ? Nicki what's wrong, what did I do ??" Drake asked taking my lip away from my teeth with his thumb

"Is this you asking me out ? How are we even sure this is going to work we barely know each other, you can't just tell me we are starting something.. You gave no warning, I'm confused you give me these feelings I love it but I'm also so confused where is this all going, putting my trust in you not to hurt me.. When  you are still hurting yourself. " I said moving myself back from him, I didn't know if it was my anxiety or the fact that I had feelings for him that scared me but I didn't know what this was

His face twisted into hurt, he seemed to try and make sense of what I said "So I'm not good enough for you because I have problems ?  I can ask you out formally I just thought if we were already going to be together a lot more often why not try something out but I guess we have differences within our thoughts Onika you need to learn to stop pushing me away cause honestly you're all I got and I kinda need you to help me get good enough for you" He said getting irritated he let go of my hand

"I never said you weren't good enough Aubrey I'm scared what if you leave me ? What if I push you away? I still don't even understand why you are giving me a thought of someone to be with I'm worthless honestly your wasting your time I don't even know how to function in a real relationship. I'm just scared sorry" I said beginning to break down I hadn't believed I was meant for someone in a very long time, I guess I could try to let him in...

"Aubrey we can give this a shot, let's just try things out I was over reacting sorry" I said beginning to cry

"I'm not going anywhere, I don't have anywhere to go.. You can't push me completely away I still need to run to you so you can help me work through these issues I have.. Your worth more than the world has to offer just let me in.. I can show you." He said wrapping me within his arms

I nodded in his chest, letting out all my fears through my tears. I guess this was the fucked up start of us...


Sorry it's a bit shorter than I wanted it to be , the story is still very open right now to where I could let it flow. It's truly only meant to be a 4 parts so the story might end open ended unless I'm really open to continuing it or unless you guys really want it to be finished. Still trying to find it's footing but part 4 should bring the characters together some how... Thanks for reading

Charge the hotline prt.3 (Recovery )

3 months later....

Nicki's POV

I walked in to the club, I owned it but had barely been in it since I had started working on the music, the smell was the same but the vibe had lost its life. I decided on a grand reopening this week after all of my renovations had been done. 

Lately I had got back in touch with TT and we reconnected with Sherika, and Lauren. They decided they would come back and work for me waitress during the nights sometimes. I was excited that everything seemed to be falling into the right place. I just had one thing missing from all of this...

Aubrey.. I couldn't bring myself to talk to him, I just didn't think it was a good idea, I just wasn't good enough yet. 

I turned on the radio while the guys painted the walls a deep red, and just as I was thinking of Aubrey's cute freckles that gently painted his face and his smile whenever he saw me, his voice hit the radio. I bit my lip loving it whenever he sang, but as I listened more and more to this song .. My heart pounded faster by the minute. The description the words it all sounded like he was talking about me. I go to change the station .. my phone rings. 

"Hello" I said 

"Nicki girl have you heard the song on the radio, its about you!" TT said 

"Yass girl its weird I don't even wanna hear it anymore" I said sighing

"You need to talk to him" TT said popping her gum

"Talk to him about what ? That song is probably just his way of letting go of me" I said getting irritated

"Onika shut up girl you know that boy still loves you like he did in high school" TT said 

"Mhmm sure" I said 

"Stop being stubborn and call him" TT said

"Uhhh after my grand opening I will" I said trying to ease my way out of this conversation

"Ok Sunday it is" TT said 

"Mhmm I got to go bye TT love you" I said 

"Bye Onika call him before I do and love you too" TT said 

I loosened the grip on my ponytail and finished signing off on the papers for my club reopening. The new name Recovery Club, I would have the best drinks, artist, dancers, food, and music. I couldn't be more happy then to finally focus on something that was mine. I smiled finally feeling some type of peace come my way. 

Drake's POV 

As I turned the wheel in my Jeep I pulled up to my apartment, the new song had taken off within the top 5 on apple music. I wanted to celebrate after working on my new album. I walked into my empty home opening up a bottle of wine. My thoughts pondered as I walked out onto the balcony to take a puff of my blunt I had been saving for this very moment. I was the man on top of the world almost had everything I wanted ... But yet I didn't have her. 

I was too scared to be the first to call, maybe this was the end. maybe my song brought my closure. I didn't want to think so negative but maybe we could just give it one last try, I would try to pry at her heart. I picked up my phone to call TT but before I could push on her name Ryan popped up trying to facetime. I answered 

"BRUH... " Ryan said sounding faded already its 2 in the fucking afternoon 

"What Ry you already faded its only 2" I said rolling my eyes 

"You know the club we booked for next Friday??" Ry said with a mischievous smile on his face 

"Yeah Recovery Club?" I said beginning to be intrigued 

"YOUR GIRL OWNS AND RUNS THE SHIT NIGGA" Ryan said busting out laughing

My eyes widened "No fucking way" I murmured

"You know whats funnier?" Ry asked 

"What?" I said sighing 

"She don't even know its us booking it! It's under Chubb's government name" Ryan said falling over on the couch 

"Shit Shit... I got to talk to her, whens the reopening again ?" I asked getting nervous 

"Saturday Nigga .. You in some deep shit.. But I got to go bye" Ryan said ending the face time call 

I couldn't believe out boys night out was going to be awkward because Onika owned the club.. we had wanted the dancers and all. I ashed the blunt took some Advil and took my ass to bed I needed to sleep off the rest of the day away. 

Later that day

Nicki's POV 

I looked at the time it was 10 pm by the time I got home. I was exhausted I needed a warm bath and my bed. I was to tired to make myself food so I opened up a bag of cranberries and almonds, started to munch away as I got the bath running adding a vanilla and lavender bubble bath soap, and dropping in a cute pink bath bomb. I put away my some what of a dinner for the night and stripped down and gently slide into the tub. Put on Pandora and closed my eyes to the soothing voice of Avant. 

Flashback 

"Baby you know you my first love right ?" Onika said to Aubrey 

As he climbed on top of her "Huh ?" Aubrey said trying to position her legs right to where he knew she would be begging for him to pound it into her.. 

Onika slid up grabbed his face looking him deep in the eyes "Aubrey I said you were my first love are you listening or am I just some pussy to you" she said feeling the pain staking sting before tears began to well up in her eyes though she was younger she wasn't dumb 

Aubrey stared at her reading her face, he'd really never wanted to feel for her. Feelings seemed unreal a joke at the most I mean he had fed her all of the love shit was he really bout it though. He'd never really had something real.. Until it all hit him as he watched every single tear fall tragically from her eyes and hit her chubby little cheeks, she was on his mind 24\7 , she enclosed his every thought, he even yearned for her touch sometimes.. Was this love ? Was he in love with this little angel, he definitely didn't deserve her. She deserved way better, but he was so selfish he wouldn't ever let her have it. 

Finally feeling hands thudding on his chest and seeing his little angel falling apart tears rolling like a rapid river and hearing every little whimper as if she were an injured puppy. He snatched up her chin looked at her still so confused , he head jerked endlessly as he pressed his lips to hers tasting every tear that has hit her sweet lips. She eased into the kiss sniffling as he pulled away. 

"Onika you're my first love too baby I've never had something so real it sends a pang to my heart to see you crying, I'm not good enough I don't deserve you but I wouldn't dare let anyone else have you, you're way more than sex you're all I think about , dream about , and yearn for. Your mines and I'm yours.......

End of Flashback 

Opening her eyes full of tears Nicki missed him more than ever, but she couldn't be weak could she? 

She scrubbed her body and then got out dried her self off, brushed her teeth, and wrapped up her hair. Laying into her silk sheets she ran her hand over the pillow he slept on, her heart aching for his love, touch, smell, his everything. She drifted off to sleep.... 

1 Week Later.. Friday 

"Alright so who is this client we have who rented out the club ?" Nicki asked exhausted the club re-opening had taken off without a hitch and having to put new employees in check and make sure things were being handled properly had taken a lot out of her. 

"Uhhh it just says a name but I guess it's with some company called OVO records" Lauren the new waitress said 

"You guys don't know how to take down fucking names ? Nicki said snatching the clip board away 

All of the employees sat there quietly "Ok well get the fuck to work, I have to go up to my office, someone knock when they arrive" Nicki said storming off to her office 

Once she was there she opened up a bottle of henny and began to slip slowly from the bottle, it all went down so smoothly taking away the stress she was just guzzling away until she realized her tummy had a completely warm sensation and her eyes began to feel warm. She sat back in her chair letting the buzz that was soon to turn into a tipsy state take over. 

She started giggling to herself fixing her makeup and changing into a tight two piece a tight long sleeve crop top and a long black skirt with a slit almost up to her hip since she was so short. 

Licking her lips she smiled in the mirror feeling fucking fantastic.. This was the first time she let loose in such a long ass time she would have fun tonight too. 

Drake's POV 

I walked into the the club a lot less nervous than I should have been, I never called Nicki 40 always seemed to find away to keep me caught up with the business, I felt like he never wanted me with Nicki in the first place. So I had sent him off to go take care of my mother for me cause I needed a stress free night.. Plus he didn't know we were blowing money at a club like this, and if he did he would kill me. 

I didn't dress up for the occasion as much as I should have I had my October sweater on , and some jeans with my very own OVO Jordan's. I smiled when seeing TT, she ran over to me giving me a big hug. 

"So you're the mystery guy to rent out the club for his buddies, came her to talk with Onika?" TT asked anxiously awaiting an answer

"Yeah , I wanted to have a sit down with her TT I wanna restart, but before I do that can I need a couple shots give me the best" I said kissing her cheek 

The boys had already gotten seated with their females who they seemingly swooped up in a matter of minutes I rolled my eyes as Ryan winked at me. I watched carefully watching some of the employees scrambling around I arched a brow as TT came and handed me my drinks

"Hurry drink boy, the queen is arriving and it seems she had a few shots herself" TT said giggling 

I turned my eyes slightly to the left there was sultrily walking smiling at the boys, in that tight fitted two piece I could just fuck her with my eyes.. It was like she was dripping this irresistible scent and she wasn't even near me yet I could feel my manhood beginning to harden. 

TT ran over to her and whispered something in her ear , I watched the her every facial expression from embarrassment to happiness. She was happy to see me ?? 

She pushed her straight black hair behind her ears, I drank the rest of my drink gulping down in thirst as she came closer step by step she always had me nervous. Always turned me on, she was my always and forever... 

"Aubrey !! Baby you finally came around you don't hate me?" Nicki said in her excited intoxicated state 

I couldn't help but chuckle it was the childhood Onika that came out. I grabbed her into a hug just so I could get a smell of her sweet scent I was even more infatuated with her as I felt her melt into my arms the feeling was mutual we had yearned missed loved each other ? I couldn't tell because i felt my buzz hit which didn't seem to help my manhood any bit at all. 

"I could never hate you baby" I said into her ear 

She let go of me, smiling hard she was still the most beautiful woman I had ever seen in my life, looking down at the ground giggling like a little girl she peeped her eyes up at me and bit her lip.

"A-a-Aubrey can we dance ?" She asked looking up at me with what I swore were twinkles in her eyes

"Baby we need to talk first like adults maybe drink some water and eat a bit ?" I said grabbing her hand 

"Hmphhh talk every time we talk it doesn't end very well mister" she said pointing her finger at me .. then taking a minute to think biting her lip "Bwut food sounds good Italian takeout ?" she asked looking up at me showing her dimples which could seem to hold the world and all your problems in them. 

"Whatever you want baby" I said she grabbed my hand and walked me up stairs to this dark red room which seemed to be her office. 

I looked around seeing pictures of her and the girls. Then of her desk the bottle of henny and clothes, looking closer I saw her thong. I laughed as I saw her waltz her way over to me with a bottle of water.

"Sorry about the mess, Aubrey order chicken parm and bread sticks from Mario's tell him Nika's order he will have it here in 10 minutes" Nicki said slowly beginning to sober up a bit. 

I did as told, and 15 minutes later there was a knock at the door. I answer it grab the food sit in the chair across from her desk , pray over the food then we eat. I watched her eat like she hadn't eaten in days then wash some down with water and other gulps with the bottle of pink chardonnay she had. 

"Alright so now time to talk you wanna sit on the couch ?" I asked 

"Yeah that's fine" She said looking down 

We settle in on the couch and took a deep breath grabbed her hand kissed it gently tasting her sweet skin 

"Baby I want you back give me a second chance please baby" I said looking her into her eyes 

Nicki's POV

I felt his piercing stare into my soul I had went cold hearted and he still seemed to be the only one who could melt be just the slightest. I went to slide my hand away but he wouldn't let go. I looked at him all the hurt rushing back it felt like I was getting hit by a train every ounce of my being hurt more than anything..

"Why ? You could have some other bitch who looks better, why are you fighting for me I don't understand?, not to mention that song that lingers in every fucking radio station and I have gone on acting like that isn't about me.. Aubrey when are you going to get over me I'm broken, imperfect, barely worth any ones time. " I said to him 

He looked confused like the moment I told him he was my first love , the boy was basically my first every thing and I had missed him I wasn't going to lie but how do you let someone in ? How do I open up that door when I feel like it's locked away with a key and cemented shut. 

"I don't want anyone else Onika I need you, you give me a sense of being, a reason to keep striving to be the best. I want you broken and imperfect because you're perfect in my eyes everyone has shit to work on. I fucked up badly I admit that, I do but I want you. Baby that song is just showing how I felt when I lost you and had to hear from other's how you were doing. I want you to be my wife, maybe our future child's mother. Baby I can't explain the feeling I get when I'm around you Onika you're my world without you I'm lost and alone I don't have anyone who can hold me and understand and accept everyone of my flaws except you. I know I still love you more than ever.. you have to feel the same baby please tell me you feel the same." Aubrey said running his hand over his smoothly fresh shaved head 

I looked at him in astonishment I couldn't express how this made me feel every other guy but Aubrey had given up on me, But Aubrey persisted into depths of which I didn't really understand but I knew I wasn't one of that little teenager again I just wasn't her.. How do I explain to him how he makes me feel. 

"Aubrey I well you umm," Shit I was stumbling "Aubrey if I take you back do not hurt me ... If I let you in please please don't hurt me, or go running again, you have to take me for me all of me." I said to him moving closer 

"Baby I won't but I need to know how you feel , don't do this unless you want this" Aubrey said to me grabbing my face

"Aubrey I need you as much as you need me, I-I-I still uhh umm love you, I do as hard as that is for me to admit to you, i don't really know how to express how I feel all I know is that you bring me this sense of relief and you're the only one that can fill that void of need that I have. You give all I could ask for I want to grow with you uhhhh" Nicki said being interrupted by Aubrey's lips pressing against hers tongues clashing tasting each other... 

They fulfilled the taste that they had both been thirsting for but couldn't find in other people.. the true attraction, they were meant for each other. Soul mates... 

I pulled away from him , looked at him in his eyes I knew I needed to feel every bit of him. "Aubrey I need you I need you right now make me feel alive again bring the old me back" I said climbing on top of him taking off my shirt leaving my breast in his face his eyes in amazement my body had grown a bit since the last time he had touched me sexually. 

Drake's POV 

I stared deeply into her eyes feeling the heat radiating off the both of us, I wanted her more than ever .. I wanted to fulfil her need give her exactly what she wanted. "Baby by the time I'm done with you Nicki will be gone and Onika will be back for good." I said 

I grabbed her face kissed her forehead, cheeks, nose, and pecked at her pink wet lips. I pushed her down onto the couch where I knew where the love would reconnect our souls again.. I kiss slowly on her neck as I pushed her skirt to the side, yet it was still in my way. I ripped it, she stared down and pouted at the sight. "I will buy 20 skirts just like it" I said making my way down to her breast where I heard her breathing begin to hitch even more, while one hand ran through her silky hair the other gently began to rub on her inner thigh. Just as she let out another gasp I tugged gently on her nipple looked up at her seeing her eyes closed in Ecstasy. This was far from lust, I began to work on her other nipple when I heard her let out a whine "Stop teasing Papi "... 

I sat up took of my shirt and gently dragged my tongue down her body.. see her push herself back towards the couch more so her sex was inching closer to my warm wet tongue. I chuckled as I began to kiss all over her pubic area then i gently kissed her clit.. watching her moan out.. I ran my tongue over it a couple more times, then I began to finally suck on her throbbing clit sending her into overdrive, I slid my fingers inside arching them as I began to fastly massage her spot leaving her crying out.. 

"Fuck fuck don't stop mmmmm" Nicki said

"You want more baby ?" I asked beginning to suck harder on her clit and make circles with my tongue right over her clit. She began to thrust her hips I felt her clinch around my fingers and push my face deeper with her hand letting out a melody of moans to which eventually died down to deep exasperated breaths for air. I spread open her fat lips to lick up all of the sweet nectar my baby had made for me licking all of it up running my tongue in and out ever so slowly.. 

Nicki's POV 

I grabbed his face bringing his lips to mine kissing him ever so gently, tasting myself within his lips I could now understand why he was so infatuated with eating me. I tugged on his bottom lip then licked him every time he came near for a kiss he chuckled and licked my cheek. Staring into his hazel eyes had me lost for words, he was so perfect. I brought his face closer bringing his ear to my mouth .....

"Fuck me hard now" I said growling into his ear 

He looked at me no words were exchanged as I watched his manhood come out of his boxer briefs, gosh he was so big and I wanted all of him now. He put me on his lap... "Baby you want it work for it a bit" he said holding onto my hips. 

I gently placed his tip at my entrance feeling every bit of me begin to stretch as I pushed him in deeper and deeper until I got all that I could fit inside of me. I slowly began to bounce on him feeling his manhood begin to slowly hit my sweet spot. I heard him grunt and he started to thrust my hips down harder I didn't mean to scream but I did. 

"Can you handle it baby ? I'm about to fuck the shit out of you" He said grunting into my neck 

"Yes yes please Papi" I screamed as he began to thrust himself into me harder and faster by the second.. we stared at each other in the eyes finding everything each other was searching for as our breaths seemed to escalate I started to feel him throb inside me which triggered me to feel like I was about to cum. 

No matter how long it had been he had always managed to make me cum with him. He began to kiss me as we were cumming I tried to maintain the kiss but I was lost everything felt so right I closed my eyes so I could feel everything his kisses our fluids mixing within the moment. 

I fell onto his chest, gasping for air, "I fucking love you" I said 

He slid us down onto the couch were we laid in each others arms "I love you sexy ass too" he said tracing my lips and tossing my messy hair around.....

The Next Morning 

I woke up in his arms in my office clothed and seemingly clean down south. I looked down to see him passed out on my chest sleeping like a baby reminding me of the old us... My phone was ringing like crazy I slid out of his grip and answered it. 

"Hello?" I said at the unknown Florida number

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Hmmm... who's calling ? Guess who's back for a little bit ??? Me I'm so happy I finally wrote something lol its been months ... sorry guys college is a lot to handle... but anyways comment like it whatever you want.. Thanks for reading 

Girl from the jungle Prt.2

  The dinner 

 I was searching through my closet for a nice dress to wear when I heard a knock on my door. I turned around to see my mother leaning in my doorway.

 "Onika, wear the white one" Carol said

 I picked up the white dress it was knee length, long sleeved, tight fit, and had an elegant twist in the mid section. "Ma its overdoing it for a dinner" I said, looking down

 "No its not, its perfect just don't spill curry on it, and don't worry about shoes you are in the house" Carol said,smiling and walking off.

I went into the shower to think, and get ready, my mind was already lost in my own thoughts of what could happen tonight.

 Drake's POV

 I jumped out the shower, and grabbed out a nice black button down t-shirt, my favorite true religion jeans, and my black timbs, mom said I had to dress nice, this was as nice as I was going to get.

 "Mom I'm going to go meet up with the boys before dinner" I said

 "Seriously Aubrey be back in 30 minutes I don't want to be late" Sandi said, taking the cake and brownies out the oven

 As Drake headed out he got in the Acura and drove down to the deep dark parts of the neighborhood, he felt around for the cash.

 He had all he needed, he stepped out went to knock on the door of an abandoned looking house, it was in shambles the steps barely able to hold his feet paint word away and the covered by wooden boards. 

 As the guy opened the door he was wearing a ski masked and asked "percs, zannies, or oxys ?"

 Already knowing Drakes wish, "Percs, and a bottle of henny, Raz told me he'd have it if I brought extra cash" Drake said, sliding him 200 dollars.

  As the guy took the cash the door slammed shut and reopened where the guy in the ski mask appeared again "Raz wants to see you" the guy said 

 I walked in cautiously, took a seat then walked in Raz , he was 6'5 and dark.

 "Drizzy man, I'm doing this for you one more time, but Ashley heard about you coming to me and she's saying she's going to talk , I can't have her interrupting business." Raz said stroking his beard

 "I'm sorry man look I'm just tryna take my mind off of Jay's death, Ashley and I aren't even speaking she must have people snooping" I said, rubbing my hands together 

 "I got you man, but you know Ashley just tryna keep an eye out for you " Raz said handing me the bottle and the pills

 "Thanks man" I said looking at him , and I started to walk out

 "Yo drizzy" Raz said I stopped and looked back

 "Yeah" I said

 "Man just try and do better for your brother man" Raz said

 "I will" I yelled back and headed back to the car, I took two pills and headed out. Then put the rest of the stuff in my bag, and drove off to go pick up my mom.

 Nicki's POV 

 "Onika go make sure Ciah is ready they are going to be here to 10 minutes" Carol yelled

 I finished braiding my hair and put on a nude lip gloss and walked over to Ciah's room to find him playing with his toys. "Ciah baby time for dinner" I said picking him up and putting on his outfit. 

He's only two and is my little baby, though my mom birthed him, I have been raising him. As Ciah walked out the room, Lani walked through the door with roses, and a teddy bear. 

"Lani" I squealed. "Hey there sis, here's this the flowers are for Ma" He said handing me the over sized pink teddy bear who had a red bow to match, then he kissed me on my forehead It had seemed like forever since I had seen my brother though it was only a couple weeks.

 He had left for some aviation program, and was supposed to be back yesterday but didn't show up until today. He picked up Ciah and handed him a stuffed toy car and kissed him too. 

 "Boy get over here and give your mother a kiss" Carol said, putting down the flowers and squeezing the life out of Lani in a hug.

 "Missed you too Ma" Lani said laughing After our little reunion, there was a knock at the door.

 My heart stopped "I'll get it" I said running to the door When I opened it, I saw Ms.Sandi standing there and Drake grabbing what looked like pans out of their car. "Hi Ms.Sandi" I said shakily

 "Hi beautiful" She responded hugging me and walking in 

 As Drake carefully walked up the steps he stopped staring at me, "Hhhi Nicki" He said looking down

 "Hi Drake do you need some help?" I asked snatching a pan

 He laughed and said "Yeah I guess you got it"

 When we walked in, I showed him where to put the pans, and we headed over to the table. Coincidentally the only seats left were the ones right next to each other, so we took the seats.

 "Oh Drake, this is my younger brother Ciah, and at the other end is my older brother Jelani" I said, pointing to the ends of the table

 "Hi" Drake said quietly as Lani starred him down

 The family said grace and we ate, Jelani pounded Drake with question after question wanting to know every detail. I looked at Jelani to stop and by the end of dinner, he stopped asking questions all together.

 As our mothers took up the plates I looked at Drake, who had seemingly taken an interest in Ciah and was playing with him.

 "Uhh, Hey Drake would you maybe want to come hang with me for a bit in my room ?" I asked only loud enough for us to hear

 He looked at me and smiled "Yeah, let me put Ciah down" he said

 I had noticed he had a bag with him all night so when he was walking with me I couldn't help but ask "Whats in the bag ?" , the feeling was eating at me there was something off about him today 

 Drakes POV

 "Just some stuff to help me feel better, and some of my raps and what not" I said

 "Oh ok" she replied, looking down 

 As we her room, I saw the innocence of a child, she had hot pink blankets, stuffed animals, and a vanity. But then you looked closer and saw the posters of encouraging words. She seemed so perfect I just couldn't see how she was broken. But you could feel the vibe in her room had lost it's light.

 I stood there watching her sit on her bed and then stare at me.

 "You can sit down" She said, patting the spot next to her

 I walked over casually put my bag down and looked up at her, she was shaking nervously, I grabbed her hand she squeezed tightly. 

"You look stunning, I forgot to tell you when I came in" I said, blushing

 "Really ? I thought I may be over did it a bit, but you look handsome as well" She said looking up at me

 "No you look.. perfect, and thank you" I said

 "Thanks, can I ask you something ?" She said, rubbing my hand 

 "Yeah , what's up ?" I replied scooting closer to her 

 "Are you ok ?" She asked I hadn't been asked that question in a while, she was trying to care, but I wasn't truly here.

 "No" came spilling out my mouth before I could say anything else 

 "What's wrong, do you wanna talk about it ?" She asked

 "I uhh well, It's getting close to the anniversary of my brother's death, and I have stumbled deeper into my numbness" I said rubbing the back of my neck with my free hand 

 "Oh, I'm really sorry to hear about your brother. I'm here if you ever need to talk, I may not be the best, but I know what it's like to feel like the world is crashing down on you" She said

 "Really?, thanks Nicki" I replied she was breaking into me

 "Yeah , I didn't have such a great childhood I lost a lot of friends along the way of growing up" She said 

 "Ohh I see, my mom told me you guys came from the jungle, my brother used to hang there" I replied

 "Yeah its not a great place, I'm not surprised a lot of people hang there.. It was bad, but some of the people there a good" She said

 "Yeah my brother used to say something like that to my mom all of the time" I said chuckling

 She smiled "Do you wanna lay down ?" She asked

 I was caught like a deer in headlights "Sure" I replied

 We laid down looking at each other, I could feel the buzz of the pill start to fade, I hated this feeling, I reached in my pocket and pulled out two more, she looked at me. "I uhh take them to help me feel better " I said nervously

 "Feel better how?" She asked curiously

 "Calm my nerves, make me not feel so much pain" I responded looking down

 "Can I try one ?" She asked pleadingly, giving me puppy eyes boy was I a sucker for those

 "Sure, just umm try not to act too strange it takes effect within 10 minutes for me" I said handing her one of the pills

 We looked at each other and took them together. As we laid there looking at each other I could slowly see her eyes to dilate and her face grew a smile.

 "I I think I feel it " She said to me.

 "Yeah its hitting me too" I replied 

 She then began to ask me questions just trying to get to know me, I answered them and asked her the same things. She seemed like your typical girl for the most part besides the fact she was a nervous wreck. I had been wanting to kiss her, I watched her lips move, her eyes light up whenever she talked about her family or friends. 

 "What's something you've done, but regret ?" I asked her

 "I well I used to be in a relationship and I ended up cutting myself to ease the pain when we started going down hill, it helped lessen my anxiety and stuff eventually I stopped." She said looking down 

 "Oh well that's understandable it helped can I see the scars ?" I asked, curiosity struck, I had always wondered what it was like to cut yourself.

  She looked at me crazy, and sat up straight pulling up her dress. "Most of them are on my inner thighs , I'm not trying to flash you" she said laughing.

  I saw each mark, some fading, others looked a few weeks old, I ran my hand over them sending goosebumps between the two of us. I reached closer and kissed a couple then looked back up at her.

 "Just a kiss so they will heal faster " I said, smiling Her skin was so smooth, her scent was intoxicating. She had me in a daze.  

    Nicki's POV

 As his head was coming up Lani walked in "I hope I wasn't intruding on anything but its time for dessert" he said and then rolled his eyes while walking off.

 I giggled "Well thank you" I said to Drake blushing awfully hard, my panties were soaked his kisses turned me on, I knew he was just trying to be sweet, it was innocent.

 "Your welcome, well before we go out there, can I get your number ?" He asked

 "Yeah no problem" I said, taking his and entering my number

 As we got off the bed, I was about to walk out until he pulled down my dress and grabbed my hand. I wasn't sure if it was the pill, him, or both, but I felt like I was on an all time happiness high. He had me feeling like I was walking on air. 

 Our mothers stared at us, both smiling. We both walked over to get dessert he chose cake and I chose the brownie. Then we went and sat down at the table and ate a bite. 

 "So where did you two sneak off too ?" Sandi asked, smiling widely 

 "we we-" I had started to answer, but Jelani jumped at the chance

 "They were in her room alone, up to no good" Jelani said angered by what he saw earlier 

 "Jelani, stop" I said 

 "Stop what the boy is just never mind, I'm not going there" Jelani said slamming down his fork and getting up from the table 

 "What happened in the room ?" Carol asked I was already shaking, now tears formed. It was just another ball of stress that Jelani was forming. 

 "We were just getting to know each other, and Jelani walked in when I was pushing myself up from the bed so the position looked awkward."Drake said 

 "Oh it's ok sweetheart , Jelani is just a bit over when it comes to his sister" Carol said winking

 Drake leaned to me and said "All better Nicki" I looked up at him smiled and nodded. 

 "Well Carol and I are going out to a bar nearby, Aubrey since Jelani isn't taking to you to well you could sleep on the couch. "Nika if Ciah wakes up you know what to do" Carol said

 "Ok " Drake and I said in unison

 As our mothers left, we just went into the living room to watch tv. Ciah was yawning in Drake's arms, and rubbing his eyes. "Baby you ready for a bath and bed ?" I asked Ciah

 "You wanna take a bath with me?" Drake said, chuckling and wiggling his eyebrows

 "No silly Ciah, needs a bath" I said giggling

 "Buwwbles !"Ciah said clapping his hands together

 "Yes baby bubbles" I responded as I picked him up. 

 While I was bathing him I could feel a presence "what Jelani ?" I asked, knowing it could only be him bugging me

 "I just wanna say sorry Nika, I just get worried, you know you were cutting yourself with your last ex and this boy, he isn't normal he has problems just like you .. I don't want this to turn into some sick, twisted love shit." Jelani said

 "I forgive you, we are just friends Lani chill. I haven't been as bad when I'm around him, he makes me feel so calm, and comforted" I said 

 "Well he does seem kinda nice, was he kissing your scars earlier ? or trying to get in your pants?" Lani asked in a serious tone

 "He was kissing my scars he felt bad and saw some of the newer ones" I said, taking Ciah out of the bath and drying him off 

 "Nicki just don't move too fast with him, I'm heading out I have some business to handle, love you Goodnight" Jelani said

 "Love you too , goodnight" I said putting Ciah in his jammies and brushing his teeth

 Drakes POV

 I walked in as she was putting Ciah into bed, I had missed these times I had with my nephew Junior. Ashley was Jermaine's ex and baby mama. I had stopped talking to her when she started dating a big time drug dealer right after my brother's passing. I just didn't understand how you could move on so quickly and to such a fuck up of a man.

 "Dwake night"Ciah said reaching out his arms for a hug I walked over and gave him a hug and a kiss on the head. 

"Goodnight little man" I said then

Nicki looked over at me as she got up and walked over to me, "Come on lets go hang in my room" 

 We headed into her room where she ran off into her closet and came back out in an over sized t-shirt and some booty shorts , she had grabbed me a pair of basketball shorts and exited the room. I quickly undressed and opened up the door. 

 "So I kinda already got over the awkward get to know you hump what do you wanna talk about now?" I asked her

 "I don't know, let's just go cuddle for a bit." she said

 "Alright" I said getting into her bed where she laid her head on my chest.

 "Can you tell me about your brother ?" She asked

 "What do you wanna know ?" I asked, feeling the sadness spread across my body, I couldn't take any more pills or smoke cause I was with her. 

 "Do you have a picture ?" She asked

 I grabbed my out my bag and showed her the screen saver of Jermaine and Junior.

 She smiled "You look like him, in a way , who is the boy ?" She asked The pain was scratching at my heart "

That's my nephew, I haven't seen him in two years, Jermaine has a different father." I said to feel the tears falls 

 "I'm sorry" she said running her hand up and down my chest I sniffled a bit trying to stop the tears.

 "You want to know anything else ?" I asked

 "No he seems like he was a great guy" She said looking down

 "You know after this I won't get to see you until our sessions together" I said looking down I swear my life just seemed to go tumbling

 "Yeah, this sucks" She said

 "Your a really great girl Nicki but I just ask that you don't attach yourself to me, I'm still sick I have a lot of problems" I said looking away from her

 "I'm just going to leave that as the depression talking, I like you, now you're stuck with me" she said looking up and biting her lip

 "Oh really, a new friend I can try" I said looking back at her

 "Well friend in your eyes we will be more before you know it, I'm your girl from the jungle I can rescue you" She said 

 Rescue me ? I just couldn't fathom anyone trying to save me. This situation was weird, everything felt so right, but could I trust it. 

"Oh I'm sure you will be my little savior, I just hope I can do the same." I responded

 Nicki's POV

 I saw the pain in his eyes. The thing about anxiety is that it eats at you makes you question every move before you make it, you feel stupid or crazy maybe even both. You're just deemed as broken and weird, but you're still a person underneath it all. I didn't know how he helped me cope, maybe it was the fact I could attach myself to someone again. He brought me so many emotions I barely knew him. I was too worried about losing him to even know if I could yet alone trust him in these sessions that were about. 

 "Well, I ought to head off to bed and you should too, unless you want Jelani up in here" I said laughing 

 "5 more minutes, please" He begged

 "Fine 5 more minutes" I said

 He sat there looking at me, he just wanted five more minutes to share and soak in our everlasting moment. I started to feel sleep come to my eyes next thing I knew I was out.

Drake's POV

I slid her off of my chest and quietly left the room, I went out to the living room where a blanket and pillow were set up. I looked at my bag in my hand and sat down on the couch. I pulled out the bottle and chugged it. As the tears began to fall I put the half empty bottle back in my bag. I ran my hand over my face many times. 

"Why , god, Why ?" I asked face red and full of tears. 

I heard footsteps and looked to my left where I saw Nicki holding Ciah in tears herself. 

"Come lay with me Drake" She said wiping the tears from her face , and rocking Ciah

I stumbled over to her, we headed off to her bed. She got in and Ciah clutched to her chest. I looked at her rubbing his back. I closed my eyes, then I felt her touch she stroked my cheek. 

"I'm sorry" I kept saying until I felt nothing and drifted off to sleep.

Well this  one is only supposed to be a 4 part oneshot, it might end up being longer. It's something totally different then what I had initially planned for, it will begin to correlate with the song Jungle later. I love the story though, and the song (Which was the idea for my first tattoo that I now have). I also wanted to add that though I correlate using drugs (pills and alcohol ) as useful outlets to get rid of pain and self harm, I don't suggest any of my readers engage in them, depression and anxiety are serious everyday illnesses which effect many people. Drugs and self harm only mask the pain, they don't get rid of it. If you suffer from these and are in need of someone to talk to I'm here, I suffer through anxiety which most often leads to depression. 

Anyways back to a good note, I'm looking for suggestions for a couple new one shot ideas, I have one about Nicki being a naughty maid lol. But hope you enjoyed reading ! Also comment please !!

Love, Drickiofmay